#amelielovesyou

I made friends with so,done that I thought understood what kind do struggles I was going through with TTC. At least so,some that always seemed sincere and genuine. I confided so much in her. And now I get played for a fool. I don't usually make friends with people from tumblr, at leas ones I speak to irl. I'm worried that this mess will create problems and issues with the other friendships I have made. Things haven't been adding up her for a long time, but I chose to gave her the benefit of a doubt and believed her. I wish she would answer her text messages. The worst part was I was just scrolling through Instagram and saw her farewell post, then all of a sudden all of this entire situation has completely blown up. I'm hurt, and I'm upset. I don't open up to people and I took a chance and got taken advantage of. I hope that everything is ok with her. But I feel she owes everyone am explanation. Why she would deceive already emotionally vulnerable women. I'm still upset. I don't know. :/

Faking a pregnancy or stillbirth does not make someone a sociopath. Faking a pregnancy or stillbirth does not make someone a sociopath. Faking a pregnancy or stillbirth does not. make. someone. a. sociopath. Would it be terrible behavior? Yes. Very. But mental illness and attention seeking behaviors are not sociopathy or psychopathy.  Unless you are a medical doctor who is currently treating someone, keep your diagnoses to yourselves. There are conditions like Factitious Disorder, Histrionic Personality Disorder, and Borderline Personality Disorder, which cause people to do things for attention and manipulate for emotional attachments. It doesn’t make people sociopaths. It’s like that’s the only word you guys know to describe mental illness. I’ve been the one faking shit before. It’s a miserable existence. It’s hard to stop once you start. You get in too deep. You have to carry it through. You feel trapped and irrational. You feel smothered by guilt. Lying for attention is a sign of very serious mental and emotional issues, and does not make someone a terrible person. People throw the word ‘sociopath/psychopath’ around like it’s nothing. You can’t diagnose someone, especially if you don’t know them. When I was lying for attention it was because I felt empty, and I wanted people to love me. I wanted the pity, the emotional security that comes from extremely close relationships with others. I wasn’t thinking about the people I was harming, I was thinking about getting my emotional needs met the only way I knew how. I learned how to manipulate people when I was four. I wasn’t evil when I was four, or fourteen, or nineteen, or now. I’m not evil, I’m not a bad person. HOWEVER: I did have to get treatment. I do have to work a program of recovery. It’s a battle with my mind every day. It doesn’t just go away. You have to work on it. Amelie, if you are reading this, there’s help out there. If you did fake all of this, please don’t hurt yourself. You can survive the backlash and you can live through the recovery. I’m here if you need to talk.

-Lizzie

I love you, Amelie. I am so sorry. My heart is breaking for you. 

Well she’s still got 2 weeks before she’d be in the clear to come out whenever she wants!! I just hope the time speeds up!