That's the thing about suicide, it's permanent. You can't change it. There's no going back. You don't get to see all the tears cried, the tears that would've let you see that people care. The tears that might of made you stay. You don't get to see how much you were really loved, by those close to you and by those that would of never even crossed your mind as you took those final thoughts. That wonderful, everlasting love that could've made you reconsider will forever be unknown. Suicides a selfish thing, but it's not your fault, it's ours. We could've done so much more. If we'd known, if we'd showed you that love, if we'd cried those tears with you instead of for you. Those never ending tears that keep coming, four months down the line. If you could of seen just how much heartache you caused would you of stayed, or were you just too far gone to be helped at all? You deserve to see those painful tears, to feel that wonderful love that was felt towards you, the devastation you caused. No one is ever too far gone. That's the thing about suicide, it makes you feel like no one cares, and you can never go back to see that they do. It makes you feel worthless, and you never get to see that to so many people you were worth the universe and more. It makes you feel like a failure and takes you too soon to see what you could've been. You were 16 years old and you deserved so much more. People need to realise that depression is just as deadly as cancer, and sometimes even harder to spot. I wish I noticed, I wish I could've done something. That's the thing about depression, it takes away the joys of life and makes you forget that there's anything worth living for. You'll never get to watch the sun rise or set again. You'll never hear the sea crash onto the beach on a stormy day. You'll never get to see your little sister grow up. You'll never get your 1st driving lesson. You'll never finish high school. You'll never buy your first drink in a pub. You'll never feel the sun on your face or the rain run down your spine. You'll never come back. You were 16 years old and you didn't deserve to go.
