#alwaysbewithyou

“Giữa chúng ta hiện diện quá nhiều tình yêu và kỷ niệm, hãy chờ đợi một chút thôi, và chúng ta sẽ lại gặp nhau"

#XIUMIN_always_you💜

#나비소년_시우민_꾹기단💙

Is it really possible to miss someone so much that your heart aches everytime they cross your mind? Someone that you have never encountered, not even once in your life...? Someone that you have never met....Well I guess it is. I don't really know how though. I can't really explain it. His voice still lingers in my head....his unique, angelic voice...The one that I can't seem to forget. Truth is, I wasn't really into SHINee at the beginning. I started liking K-pop only this past summer and the first group that got me hooked in this whole new world was non other than EXO. I got so excited...and I introduced them to my friends. Basically some happened to like this new type of music and some didn't. Back to the main part of the story...I was familiar with Taemin and I truly admired the guy, he was and is amazing!!! I also knew that he was part of a K-pop group but never really took the time to become familiar with it. (Major mistake if you ask me!!!)

I learned about Jonghyun after his death. I still remember scrolling through my instagram and reading "R.I.P" and "You will be missed"...I was like what is going on....Fast forward to a little while later I started investigating. It's true what they say in my opinion! You can't really NOT fall for SHINee!! I just fell a little harder than I was expecting I guess. Jonghyun's and SHINee's music really gave me comfort...there was still a little piece of me though, denying the undeniable fact that I had fallen head over heels for a guy that wasn't coming back...Even now my heart breaks a little bit, as I am writing this. You know sometimes I feel that nobody around me seems to understand. I have two friends who are into K-pop, but they don't really care.. recently I send to my best friend one of Jonghyun's VCRS and I was like " Dude you have to check it out!!!". Long story short today she called me and told me that she was so tired of me sending her constantly Jonghyun related videos and pictures! I felt terrible...I apologised of course..but still, I feel like I have no one that I can talk to..someone that will understand my pain, someone that won't assume automatically that I am a crazy fangirl and so into my own world...

"He is not coming back!!"

"GET OVER IT"

People say...but he still makes me smile...the things that he left behind (his interviews, songs etc.) still manage to make me smile...so I am asking them: " But how can you possibly forget someone who makes you smile ? "

(If you want to tell me your thoughts and feelings, I am totally open about it...)