#allkk

I'm not happy! I'm not! Seriously, could you please not sparkle like that? Please don't recognize me! Please keep me out of your sight! But please stay in my sight!

You know... I really... really want to be with you after all.  But- No. Let me stay by your side. You and I-  I like you. It doesn't matter what others say. I love you. I... need you. I really do. Am I… allowed to… get you... a bit involved... in my... happiness? Only a bit? A... A lot involved. I'd love to get a lot involved! 

I think... We were different from a “normal” household. Mom always loved someone other than my Dad. Our house was always dead silent because of it. Whenever being in my own home was suffocating, I’d unconsciously go to your place. And from within, I always heard cheerful laughs. I envied your home’s atmosphere. That’s why I decided I’d smile, even if no one else in my family would. But... I thought my smile made people uncomfortable. But you know what? You gave meaning to my smile, Mamocchi. Thanks to you, I came to like my smile I started to hate. That’s why I decided I’d become a top-tier idol.

I was way too ambitious. Me, coming into contact with his life? You were right. He was beyond me to begin with. I knew that from the get-go. Even so... whenever... he treated me kindly... I felt pain. But it wasn't all pain. He also made me happy. Yeah. I got jealous... Yeah. I longed to see him... and I wanted to run. Yeah. Yeah. I wanted him... to recog- to recognize me most. But I... I hate myself... for being like this. I'm sorry.

The more I draw the art that I love, the more people start to distance themselves from me. When I saw him naturally get close to people, I always... felt miserable.