#alive!!

Markus is Alive; Markus is a full and breathing and alive man OR a quick list of things he likes and doesn’t like OR look how alive he is:

Markus enjoys playing the piano, and laying next to a heater or fireplace wrapped in a blanket. 

He loses his keys and makes speeches in the moment (he... rarely writes them before hand; he has topics, themes, but not... the speech). 

He likes thin turtlenecks and sweaters over them; and t-shirts with flannels and jeans. 

He... does not enjoy wearing ties. Coats down to at least his thighs are his favorites. He wears bracelets with the names of his loved ones and the dates of Jericho’s fall. He’s rarely seen without them. 

He enjoys fiction, mostly poetry (some classics), and non-fiction philosophy (but only... applicable philosophy; nihilism is Not for him), titles written by activists about social issues and societal improvement and awareness, and historical non mainstream accounts. 

Detroit is his home and he doesn’t wish to live elsewhere when he is an android. In human verses, Detroit is still his home, but traveling has more of an appeal. 

Hiking and camping is something he has little time for but that he enjoys immensely. There is a distinct freedom to it. He prefers late spring/summer/early fall camping, because he likes to be warm. 

In his human verse, he runs as a means to exercise. Early morning park runs are something he started as he accommodated to a life as an ER nurse (early mornings, late nights, OR all-nighters). He’s frequently seen in the park nearest his apartment, but he varies his routine and circuit. Android Markus doesn’t... strictly need to exercise, but he has done some sparring.

He wants to see a sunrise/sunset on a beach. It seems like something so... simple, but he wants it. 

He likes throw blankets and... artistic, not traditional, interior designed. It’s based more on complimentary colors and art-pieces. His art spaces is an organized mess of sketches, and started canvases, and well-worn paints, and nearly empty-paint bottles because he just doesn’t want to finish them.

He gets paint on him when he paints. It’s gonna be smudged on his cheek, and arm, and nose. You’ll have to be afflicted with that sight.

Pandora> Just a little further.

Alpa: *sarcastically* Past all the "Do Not Enter" and "No Trespassing" signs?

Pandora nodded, completely serious. Groaning and rolling her eyes, Alpa jumped over the gate, which was much easier than she expected.

Pandora> Keep walking and don't speak; a camera just saw you. Don't worry.

Alpa: .........

She kept going until she saw a rather ordinary looking house, although it reminded like a house from a movie where someone paranoid yet technilogically advanced would hole up to hide.

Pandora> That's actually a good description.

Alpa: Actually?

Before Alpa could finish being offended, a harsh voice crackled through a speaker.

???: Who are you?

Pandora> Answer truthfully.

Alpa: ...........................

Pandora> Alpa!! Answer her!!

Alpa: Who are you? Why should I talk to you?

The voice from the house paused, as if confused by her question.

???: You need to leave this property immediately. You are trespassing, and I can and will call the police!

Alpa: *groan* Look, I am tired, I am sick and tired of not getting answers from a voice in my head, and-

???: Voice in your head?

Alpa: I assume you know what a SQUIP is?

Alpa heard the click less than a second before she was almost blinded by the lights that turned on. When she could see, she continued her exhausted stare at the door.

Alpa: Don't get scared, I'm not here to make a scene, I just want answers. My SQUIP told me to come here.

She looked into the camera that she eventually found, waiting for a response.

The lights flashed again before causing the world to return to darkness. Although no one was watching, if there was, there would be no sign anyone had ever been at the door in the first place.

[FR] Il semble que Cya soit présent dans le MV TRAINEE PAPARAZZI de Sunwoo ! On peut le voir à la fin du MV.

Literally the day after my spinal surgery she had an urgent care vet appt and the (lazy, useless) vet said we should put her down, that she was in the final stahe of kidney failure (shes been in stahe 2 kidney failure for over a yr, this guy was say8ng she was stage 4 all of a sudden). I got my regular vet to give a 2nd opinion and she said the original dude was wrong, but that something was going on and to bring her back in. After that appointment, an appointment at a vet neurologist, an mri with a full day of hospitalization, we finally got some real answers. Tank has been having small strokes that were causing micro bleeds in her brain. It's part of why she was walking like she was drunk. Part of it is also a bulging disk in her spine (same girl, same), and a luxating right hip. Also, she's in the early stages of cognitive decline (basically dog dementia). I've had pets have all of this except the strokes before, so I know what this road looks like.

We had answers, and meds, but she was still losing weight, not eating, falling more than she was walking, and not sleeping. I made a follow up appointment with my regular vet to talk about putting her to sleep.

Then last week, two days before the vet appointment, she just started eating one day. Like that day all the meds finally began to work and she was like "fuck yeah food!". She gained five pounds in three days. Three days! She stopped looking lost most of the time. She began drinking water again. She wagged her tail for the first time in a month.

This afternoon she tried to jump on the sofa. She can't, and she shouldn't, but the fact that she tried! And now she just went up the bed ramp too. I cannot describe how lucky I feel. How happy and relieved and excited.

I really thought this was the curse of 13. All my dogs have died at 13. It's like something happens at 13 where some part of their bodies all went "nope, I'm out". Pulmonary embolism, heart failures, kidney failures, dementia, renal failure. Reality is Tank is 13, and I will be exceedingly lucky if she makes it to 14, I know that. The road to 14 is going to be hard too. Even now that she's doing better there's still daily meds, fluids twice a week, prescription foods, and alternative treatments I haven't even begun to look into yet. (Loke acupuncture and laser therapy). But I would rather she have time and go peacefully when it's time than the miserable horror show the last weeks have been.

So many things I want to learn but I only got these two lil hands

Out of the shit hole and into the rabbit hole

I go for treasure of time and lil gay people

I'm just a lil guy

I don't have much time

But I'll make the best of it