#alien's writing

hey thanks so much for the ask!! i am. so so so sorry it's taken me a While to answer it. i really meant to try to get to it the day you sent it in, but then i got busy with other things, and then i wanted to spend some time thinking about the headcanons aspect, so. it took me a minute. but know that i really loved receiving this ask, and i'm so glad to hear that you love the fic collection and the genderqueer!sara ones I've written (and know that there will be a couple more coming up in the near future!)!

i don't necessarily have like. a ton of Specific genderqueer!sara headcanons tbh, but i'll still put a few, or as many as I can think of, down a little bit further on this ask, and I hope you enjoy them!

as for genderqueer/genderfluid!ava, I haven't really thought about that at all? it's not something that i... necessarily see, personally i guess? i can't exactly say how likely it would be for me to write genderqueer/genderfluid!ava, but i wouldn't entirely take it off the table, either. there's always a chance it could happen, and i'm not opposed to the idea or anything, it's just. not something I've thought of before. usually if i'm headcanoning ava as not cis, then i'm thinking of her as a trans woman, but like I said, genderqueer/genderfluid!ava is a cool idea too, and i am. kind of able to see it a Little bit more now that it's been put out there!

now, for Genderqueer!Sara Headcanons:

she still largely goes by she/her pronouns, because it's never been something that was ever Uncomfy for her, and her genderqueerness/fluidity has always largely been based in the expression/presentation aspects, and just a general internal sense of queerness and fluidity as a whole. despite that, she's also very comfortable with they/them pronouns if people ever decide to use them for her, because while she's never been uncomfortable with she/her, she Does appreciate the extra freedom and fluidity with they/them pronouns

somedays, being comfortable and feeling like herself means stepping into all the more typically feminine aspects. she feels confident and sexy and badass in a dress and heels. she wears her hair down and puts on makeup, however much or little, and she feels Unstoppable

and then other days, its not that at all. sometimes even just the idea of that is enough to make her squirm a little bit, because it feels so foreign and uncomfortable and just. not her at all. most of the time, on those days, she wears her hair up, because the feeling of it on her neck sends her spinning. she's in pants and muscle tees or button-ups and blazers or anything else that makes her feel like this. this is me. suit and tie if she needs to be really formal. combat boots over anything else because honestly, combat boots just have the ability to make her feel like herself no matter what kind of day it is, and she can make them look killer with anything

she never really puts a label on it. she's aware of genderqueer and genderfluid and various other terms, and she's sure one or more of them would probably fit if she decided to look into it, but more often than not she finds she doesn't really Need a definitive name for it. she's fine just existing the way that she is and the way that she always has. she's content with that, and the people that matter to her understand and accept it without question or much explanation because its just Who She Is, and the ones she loves also love her, all of her, simply because she is who she is. it fills her with a sense of peace and contentment and belonging more than anything else ever could.

i feel like sara would end up in charlie's room on various occasions, just. talking about it. i always always Always headcanon charlie as nonbinary/genderfluid and just generally very open and loud about it, and sara is just like. Respect. y'know? so sometimes she just wants to talk about it with someone who just gets it so explicitly and intrinsically, and that someone is charlie for sure. they've had many conversations about what its like to be a shapeshifter and how that also must be so nice in terms of gender expression and just. presentation in general. sometimes sara wishes she could experience it too. like for the most part she's generally really comfortable with herself and with her body, and she's fought hard to get to a place like that, but there will always be that little part of her in the back somewhere that wonders what it must be like to be able to change anything on a whim and change it back just as much on a whim

it doesn't happen often, especially not anymore, but sometimes sara still gets flashes of insecurity about the whole thing, and she kind of has a habit of asking ava if its all okay, this whole gender thing, and ava is always so quick to reassure her that its Perfectly okay, that ava only ever wants her to be comfortable and that she should do and wear and be whatever that is at any given moment (and, of course, that ava wholeheartedly thinks sara looks good in pretty Anything because she's just that in love with her)

ahh thank you so much! i'm glad you enjoy them!! 😄

tagged by: @puppetsoftomorrow thanks!! :D

writing game: post the last line you wrote and tag someone for every word in that line

She felt Ava smile into her skin and press another round of kisses against her back. Warmth spread through her and curled all around her, swirling wonderfully in her stomach.

(it's from a new avalance porch/retirement fic. i started writing it last night just to be able to write Something cause i needed a bit of a small break from my longer AU fics that i've been doing. loving it so far!)

ahh thanks for the ask! :)

7. tell us about the plot of the first fanfic you ever wrote

hmm ok well, i'm fairly certain my origins in fanfiction came Long before i ever knew the word for it, and as such. i do believe my first "fanfiction" was written on printer paper in blue crayon, because it was about Leonardo from Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. if i recall, it was kind of based on the 2007 TMNT film? something about Leo hitching a ride on a plane, I think. I clearly did not get very far in that endeavor, and it has since been lost to time, but I suppose I would still count that as my first ever attempt at fanfiction. after discovering the word fanfiction and everything though, I believe my first fic was still for TMNT (probably the 2012 series? though 2003 will always be my favorite), and it was after Leo's whole injury arc in s3. I don't remember all the details, but I think the Turtles went back to NYC only to realize that Leo was still injured/in pain? not really sure tbh. either way, i was already a sucker for angst and hurt/comfort even then at the age of 10-11 lmfao. it may even still be on wattpad somewhere, but hell if I know lol

10. at what point in the process do you come up with titles, and how easy or hard is that for you?

so, it kind of depends on the fic? bc i have at least one (1) WIP that already has its title, and i'm sure others may come along like that, but Most of the time i usually won't title a fic until I'm done writing it, that way i'm able to better capture the whole vibe of the fic in the title. as for how easy/hard that is? the answer is, uh, Yes. it's both. see, because i have 2 different documents Full of potential fic titles, most of them song lyrics (one document is dedicated to the songs from my favorite band, the other is just. a complete mixed bag of stuff). so in that way, it's easy, because i have so many that are Right There, but in the same vein, i usually end up going through both documents in full and making a list of titles that could potentially fit, and then i narrow it down from there, and the narrowing down is the hard part. like for my 19.5k word fic survive the story cause the ending changes everything, i originally had a list of about 48 potential titles? and boy narrowing that one down was Hard, and it only got harder the more I narrowed it down. but hey, it eventually got titled so. woo! but honestly i am forever grateful to myself for being so, uh. obsessed and insane about both fic and music, enough to make those documents in the first place. they are truly life-savers, i don't really know what i would do without them, so. thank you past-me for creating such a wonderful tool 💜

26. do you like to write one-shots or series, and why?

most of what i write is oneshots, though i don't necessarily have any particular reasoning for that? just seems to be what i write most. i do have a few multi-chapters currently in the works, or at the very least as ideas. some of them were planned as multi-chapters from the start, such as the legends nightmare-scape fic i have planned, as well as my smalltown legends ptsd!sara au. the one that i'm currently working on, an avalance (+sin!) zombie apocalypse au, was originally supposed a Really long oneshot, but has since changed into a multi-chapter because it worked better that way with POVs and stuff. don't know when that one will be done, but i'm super excited about it! and then of course i still have the legends hsau idea that would most definitely be a multi-chapter, and a legends soulmate au series that i had planned and started way back when, though whether i'll ever get back to that one remains to be seen. but other than that, yeah, most of what i write tends to be oneshots. kind of just an easier format for me i guess?