#alchemyofsouls

"They call me Naksu, for wherever I go, heads fall to the ground. A beautiful name, isn't it?" - Naksu from Alchemy of Souls, Episode 1

He knows Bu-yeon is So-i but he sees the person behind the mask, the person made worse by her circumstances, and he empathises.

Because of Naksu. Because he realised Naksu was a person, too, the exact person he had/has a crush on, the person who turned out to be his best friends' maid, and he can never have her because his friend and her are hopelessly in love with.

So what does he do? He falls for So-i, whom he pities at first, and after he made a parallel between So-i and Naksu, he was determined not to make the same mistakes

At first I didnt really understand why he wants to suffer so much, but i just rewatched s1ep18 and it makes so much sense. Its so sad that he cant let go of his past, but no wonder he falls for Naksu again and again, would it be actually her in another body or a woman that reminds him of her.

in the end, naksu/yeong’s choice to not train her fighting skills anymore makes perfectly sense in a trauma-healing perspective. 

she became an assassin not by choice, but by jin mu’s manipulation. she was just a kid. alone. it was the only way to survival. 

as mu-deok, she chooses to live a peaceful life with jang uk, giving up on her powers and sword. this choice was taken away from her and ONCE AGAIN jin mu used her. 

he brought naksu back and she killed the only one who cared about her. the only one who really protected her no matter what.

as jin bu-yeon, she could learn a life that didn’t require training and exhaustion. when meeting jang uk once again, her soul felt save. she could bloom without her traumas. 

then her memories came back. imagine THE PAIN to know that you killed the man you love. she embraces the blame and leaves - because she is afraid to do it again. to bring more pain and violence into his life. 

because naksu is a powerful bad bitch and we love her, i know, but she is also alone and traumatized. 

when she marries uk, is as cho yeong. it’s a chance to live a life she had lost.  

so, after jin seol-ran lets her stay in that body, she is able to live happily with jang uk as jang yeong. she is FINALLY able to say enough, to choose something else over violence. to help her friends with their domestic problems and live a happy long life with her hubby. 

there is no real need to go back to training. she is not in "survival mode" anymore. she has divine powers to protect herself now. she deserves this rest. yeong is at peace and healing. 

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i just want to share that i wrote an ukyeong office au!! ceo! jang uk x secretary! cho yeong 🥰 i hope you can check it out guys and leave a comment 🤧i just want someone to delulu with me hehehe thank you 💗

ps. it has 2 chapters 🥰

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