#alas!

maybe opening commisions would be a viable source of cool stuff now ... i can hardly draw my own characters right now though so im not sure how thatd go , really...

so my takeaway from tabling with jill today was that doing it-- like, not With Her, Today but in general, the actual task of it, was fine and I liked it fine! I could see myself doing that and liking it fine. I have a few pieces that I could probably sell a couple of prints of. I actually discovered some Opinions about both visually arranging and business-running an art table like that and I like the Idea of setting up and running my own. however, none of this would be worth actively scouting vending opportunities, paying a table fee, acquiring almost definitely more prints than I would ever actually sell, figuring out pricing, maintaining a professional presence on facebook,

I think i wanna go by my middle name (eli/elijah) but feel bad asking my boyfriends and friends to get used to a new name again yknow

wish i wasnt broke so i could subscribe to someones smut comic 😔😔😔

didn't bring any of my sewing stuff w me bc i didn't think i would want it and i'm so bored where are all my hobbiessssss

only just realized asks were off. agony

The author’s conundrum between the overwhelming tenderness towards humanity she feels and the lament of her seemingly insurmountable alienation and ostracism from others wherever she goes, across her life