[A Night at the Hot Spring Inn and a Moment of Healing] Wishing to Be Like a Butterfly - Fennesz
※Note: This translation was done by AI, and I'm not fluent in English, so it may not be 100% accurate and could contain errors.
Episode 1
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Visiting the Eastern Lands as Goodwill Ambassadors... With Lord Finlay's permission, we were spending some time off at an inn.
The innkeeper had earnestly requested: "The inn is currently in its pre-opening phase, so we have a few double rooms available... I would be honored if the Goodwill Ambassadors would make use of one." Though a bit flustered, I decided to invite Fennesz.
The situation of staying in a double room alone with his Master... While he was visibly startled at first, he happily agreed, saying, "It is all to cooperate with the inn in our role as ambassadors."
— One Afternoon —
Fennesz: Master. I shall organize your change of clothes and small items together in this storage space.
You: Thank you, Fennesz.
Fennesz: Not at all... Something of this degree is only natural for a butler. Besides, today... well... we are staying in this room, j-just the two of us... So no matter what it is... please, feel free to rely on me.
You: Thank you, but...
Fennesz: But...?
Fennesz usually works so hard, so today... I want him to get a good, solid rest. That would make me happier, too... and I think we can spend a truly enjoyable day together that way.
You: ...That's what I was thinking, but what do you say?
Fennesz: Uh, umm... I see...
At my words, Fennesz looked momentarily flustered... but soon a gentle, soft smile spread across his face.
Fennesz: First of all... thank you for being so thoughtful toward me. Expressing it so kindly by saying "It would make me happy if you did that" to let me rest... and thinking about wanting to have a fun time together with me... it makes me exceedingly happy. Therefore, I shall take you up on your kind words today... and allow myself to get a proper rest. And on top of that, with you, Master... I would love to spend a truly wonderful day...
You: Yeah, let's make it a great day.
Fennesz: Hehe... yes. Whether we go out after this... or just spend a relaxing time inside the room... let us make it a wonderful day together.
Fennesz, who seemed a bit nervous when we first arrived at the room... was now beaming with a bright, open expression. Delighted by this, when I couldn't help but smile at him... Fennesz returned the gesture with a blissfully happy smile of his own.
— A short while later —
We arrived at a nearby hot spring town.
Fennesz: As expected of a tourist spot... there are plenty of food stalls and souvenirs on sale. Master, if there are any shops you would like to stop by, please feel free to tell me anytime.
You: Yeah, I'll do that.
As we walked along chatting like that... a sweet shop caught my eye. In front of the store hung signs reading "Strawberry," "Lemon," and "Matcha"... and from inside, the sound of shaving ice could be heard.
Fennesz: Shaved ice... Hehe, how fitting for summer. The sun has come out a little as well... Eating it right now would surely taste delicious.
You: Then, do you want to try some?
Fennesz: Yes, let us do that. There are various flavors, but... which one would you like, Master?
You: I'll go with...
After listening to my choice, Fennesz immediately ordered shaved ice for both of us. Waiting until I sat down on a nearby bench... Fennesz softly sat down right next to me. Fennesz's shaved ice was a different flavor from mine... and had an exceptionally vivid color.
You: That's really colorful.
Fennesz: Hehe... you're right. But this vibrant, striking color... really feels like authentic shaved ice. Well then... shall we dig in?
You: Thanks for the food.
Fennesz: Thanks for the food. Alright... for the first bite, I'll start from the part with lots of syrup... ...Ah.
You: What's wrong?
Fennesz: Ah, no...! It's nothing big at all. It's just, well... my shaved ice is so intensely colorful... I feel like if I eat it... the inside of my mouth will probably get stained by the syrup's color...
You: Now that you mention it, that might happen...
Fennesz: Right...? Hmm, what should I do... Even if I'm careful not to get it on my lips while eating... my tongue will inevitably get stained...
Speaking like that, Fennesz had quite a dead-serious expression on his face. ...Is having one's tongue turned the color of shaved ice really that much of an issue? I didn't quite get it... but to Fennesz, it seemed to be a major dilemma. In that case, it might be better to swap with my shaved ice, which was much more subdued in color.
You: ...Do you want to swap with mine?
Fennesz: N-No...! I'm sorry, I'm fine. Even if I eat the shaved ice I have right now... all that happens is the inside of my mouth turns a funny color. It's just that, for me... I simply... didn't want you to see me looking uncool, Master.
You: Ah, I see...
Fennesz: ...Yes. I'm sorry for making such a fuss. Regardless of the color inside my mouth or anything... looking like this right now is already pretty uncool, isn't it...?
You: I don't think that's true at all, though...
Fennesz: I-Is that so...?
You: You're always cool, Fennesz.
Fennesz: Eh...!
(Whether the inside of his mouth turns a funny color or he feels embarrassed about it happening... Fennesz's charm isn't diminished in the slightest by something of that level. Rather, being able to carefully consider "how one appears in the eyes of others"... isn't that actually one of Fennesz's greatest strengths and charms?)
You: So, please don't worry about it too much.
Fennesz: I-I see... That is, umm... A-Anyhow... it's gotten quite hot, so... if I don't eat it quickly before it melts... ...Bon appétit.
Saying so, Fennesz tentatively brought the shaved ice to his mouth. And with every single bite he took... his brightly stained tongue peered out from time to time.
Fennesz: ...... ...Is it stained?
You: Yeah, it's a pretty color.
Fennesz: ...Pretty, is it...... Hehe... Hearing that somehow makes me feel like jumping for joy. ...Thank you very much, Master. And... I'm sorry.
You: Eh...?
Fennesz: ...Before eating the shaved ice, I made a fuss about "not wanting you to see me looking uncool"... but deep down, I was actually expecting... that if it were you, Master, you would tell me "don't worry about it."
You: So that was it.
Fennesz: ...Yes. So... even though I didn't mean to, it ended up looking like I was testing you... But hearing you say from your own mouth that you didn't mind... made me feel so deeply relieved. In the process... hearing you say that I'm "always cool" made me extremely happy, too... and the way you conveyed "it's okay, don't worry" was so incredibly gentle...... I realized once again... that you are an even warmer person than I had ever imagined, Master.
You: "Even more than you imagined," huh...?
Fennesz: Ah...! I'm so sorry for phrasing it so rudely. I mean, I already knew that you were an amazingly kind person, Master... but through our interaction just now, I felt it all over again...
You: It's okay, I understand what you meant.
In short, Fennesz thinks of me as a kind person. And through our exchange just now... that feeling of his seems to have grown even stronger. Putting aside whether I'm actually a kind person or not... I now understand how Fennesz feels about me.
You: Thank you, Fennesz.
Fennesz: Eh...? Um... for what, exactly...?
You: For thinking of me as a kind person, and for sharing so much of your feelings with me.
Fennesz: ......! ...Hehe. I see, is that so... You really are... amazing, Master. The way you receive my words, and the words you speak to me... every single bit of it... is overflowing with kindness.
Saying so, Fennesz offered me a smile. A tongue stained with the color of shaved ice peeked from the corner of his lips... but looking so blissfully happy, he didn't mind it one bit.
Episode 2
After that, I was having lunch at a restaurant Fennesz guided me to. Channels of water ran all throughout the interior... and the sound of the murmuring stream was incredibly refreshing.
Fennesz: Phew... Thank you for the meal.
You: Thank you for the meal.
Fennesz: Hehe... It seems the food at this restaurant suited your taste, Master.
You: Yeah, thank you for bringing me here.
Fennesz: Not at all... As long as it makes you happy, Master, that is more than enough to make me happy as well.
As we were enjoying our post-meal moment like that... a single butterfly came fluttering by. It perched near the water channel... quietly resting its wings.
Fennesz: ...Ah. That wing pattern is...
You: Do you know it, Fennesz?
Fennesz: Yes, though I don't know the full details... It's a member of the milkweed butterfly family, and I believe it's male. The reason I can tell it's male... is because the butterflies that gather around water sources like this are usually males. Furthermore, that specific milkweed butterfly... should be the migratory type. Among milkweed butterflies, some travel according to the seasons, just like migratory birds... And if it's that butterfly, if I recall correctly... it should be able to travel over a thousand kilometers. Perhaps to withstand such long-distance travel, its wings are quite sturdy... and as it flutters, there's a certain sense of strength to it.
You: I see...
Perseverance to survive a long journey... and the strength of its fluttering wings... Hearing his explanation of that butterfly... a certain person suddenly comes to my mind.
You: That butterfly looks a bit like you, Fennesz.
Fennesz: Eh...? Umm... I don't think that's the case at all, but... ...May I ask... in what way do you think we are similar...?
Fennesz asked timidly... but his expression clearly showed that he was hoping for a compliment. Looking at him like that was so endearing... that I couldn't help but burst into laughter.
Fennesz: Ah, Master...?
You: Hehe... it's nothing.
To reassure the anxious Fennesz... I began to explain the reasons why I thought he resembled that butterfly. The milkweed butterfly by the water channel... quietly watched over us as we spoke.
— That Evening —
Having returned to the inn... we decided to take turns taking a bath. I enjoyed my bath first... and now, it was Fennesz's turn. Wishing that he, who loves baths, could fully enjoy this time... I waited for him to return.
Fennesz: Phew... (Hehe... What a truly wonderful bath.) (It's not just because it's an open-air bath with a beautiful view.) (It's because I went out with Master, came back... and am taking a bath while looking back on the fun time we had... That's surely why it feels so good.) (And what's more, even after I get out of the bath... my time with Master will still continue...) (Hehe... I am... so incredibly happy right now.) (So much so that I catch myself thinking... Is it really alright for someone like me to be this happy...?) ...Hm? Is that a milkweed butterfly?
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Fennesz: ......Woah, amazing! For a butterfly to come this close to a person... Hehe, looking at it like this... milkweed butterflies really are beautiful... And... its wingbeats are strong, just as expected. ...Earlier today, Master told me... that the milkweed butterfly resembled me... To think that I could be compared to such a wonderful butterfly...
...Fennesz, who had gone to take a bath, showed no signs of coming out at all. He might just be enjoying a long soak... but it would be terrible if he fell asleep in the warm water. Facing the open-air bath beyond the screen, I called out to him in a slightly raised voice.
You: Fennesz, are you okay?
Then, a voice replied—sounding somewhat panicked, yet somehow delighted at the same time.
Fennesz (Voice): Ah, Master... I'm sorry, did I make you worry? Umm... I am terribly sorry, but... I would be grateful if you could give me just a little longer before I come out. Well... my face is probably smiling way too broadly right now...
You: Your face...?
Fennesz (Voice): Y-Yes. How should I put it... As I was recalling various things from today... I couldn't help it... Besides..... right now, my hands are a bit full.
You: Eh...?
Just as I was about to ask what kind of situation he was in, Fennesz's joyful voice drifted over.
Fennesz (Voice): Hehe, to tell you the truth... right now, a milkweed butterfly is resting on my hand. Today, when you looked at this butterfly, Master... you told me that it looked like me, didn't you? I... was so incredibly happy back then. I'm sure for you, Master... it was just a casual comment... but for me... it was a phrase as precious as a treasure. To think that I could be reflected in your eyes as an existence as beautiful and strong as this butterfly... I'm so overwhelmed with happiness that I might faint from the heat. ...If my wish could come true... I would love to continue being like a milkweed butterfly to you forever, Master... ...Hehe. Goodness... I'm sorry. For me to say something like this... it seems I've already gotten dizzy from the hot water.
In a gentle yet surprisingly clear voice... Fennesz conveyed his feelings to me.
Fennesz (Voice): Well then... I shall get out soon. Because once I do... I want to talk with you right away, Master.
Shortly after, Fennesz emerged from the changing room.
You: Welcome back, Fennesz.
Fennesz: ...Yes. Thank you for waiting, Master. I am sorry for making you worry because of my long bath. And..... to present myself before you with my hair still so wet... how should I put it... it might have been a bit too unkempt of me. No matter how eager I was to talk with you quickly... it seems I rushed through getting dressed.
With his hair damp and his clothes worn more loosely than usual... Fennesz apologized nervously. He seemed to deeply regret showing such an unkempt side of himself... but from my perspective, there was absolutely nothing he needed to apologize for.
You: It's okay even if you're a bit unkempt.
Fennesz: Master... ...No, but...
You: I wanted to talk with you too, Fennesz.
Fennesz: ...Is... that so?
Timidly, in a reserved tone... yet with eyes full of hopeful anticipation... Fennesz asked me. My answer to him... had already been decided long ago.
You: That's right.
When I told him, "I probably wanted to talk to you even more than you did"... Fennesz let out a bashful, gentle laugh.
Fennesz: Even more than me, you say...? Hehe... That... must be quite a feat then.
Looking so happy and delighted... Fennesz smiled, his eyes narrowing softly. His face, his damp hair... were illuminated by the evening light.
Fennesz: Ah, umm... Master...
You: What's wrong?
Fennesz: This is... entirely my fault for not properly drying my hair, but... if possible, I would appreciate it if you didn't look at me too closely right now......
You: If it bothers you, I'll look away, but...
...Spending the whole day with Fennesz today reaffirmed it for me: he really cares deeply about how he appears in my eyes. Paying attention to how he is perceived is one of his great strengths... but just for now, I wanted him to spend time with me without any worries at all.
You: You look cool even with wet hair.
Fennesz: Eh...!
You: So, can I keep looking at you?
Fennesz: Th-That is... ...... ...Yes. If that's how you feel, Master... as much as you like.
Tucking his damp hair behind his ear... Fennesz met my eyes and smiled shyly. If I told him that Fennesz, smiling so gently right now, was far more wonderful than any milkweed butterfly... would he believe me? ...The sun hasn't completely set yet. It seems we still have plenty of time to talk and share our feelings with each other.










