Eixa is my neighbour. She lives down the hall from me, across the landing, and I am on one side and she is on the other. When we sleep she can knock on her wall, and sometimes I knock back. If I look out from my window I can see into hers, a yellow space of washed out carpet and a string of plastic stars, twisted and tacky. Standing just there, her feet damp in that yellow picture, I can see her shower-loose shoulders and long wet hair.Â
Eixa is from far away. She came to us from across the moor, days and days of journeying and she was utterly alone when she did it too. I came with someone else: in my case, my mother. I havenât seen her since but that is more the norm, I believe. And Eixa since then has certainly been alone.Â
She eats with us sometimes. Rarely. When the meat is particularly sweet smelling she comes downstairs with hesitant feet and stands, bare-armed and awkward, against the doorframe. She hasnât learnt that she is allowed to come whenever she wants; or we havenât learnt to leave her. She flicks her eyes upwards and then back down, and it must be the dark shadowed curve of her lashes on her craterless cheek, or else the restless fingers tracing the doorframeâs egg-peeling paint, because there is something soft in her that Tarahn beckons inwards, folding, and she sits with us and we eat.Â
















