#ahmm

i think i know why i hiperfocus so much in cod- and pretty specific things. old things. i lost a very important piece of me that- i havent healed neither accepted yet, and this piece showed me the world of games, CoD, MK 9 and LBP specifically. i remember playing. i remember having so much fun and- nothing much. I was happy, a 100%. Nice enjoying moments... that wont come back. but- replaying and researching and going through it all over again like it was the first time, takes me back to it. Makes me- idk, feel comfy, feel like a little kid again, feel like i havent lost a single piece of myself.

thoughtful. its so. small.