#ahghhh

AAAAH, MY BEST FRIEND JUST TEXTED ME. We were supposed to stop talking for a while, after everything that happened between us. Even our parents got involved in this... WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? ヘ⁠（⁠。⁠□⁠°⁠）⁠ヘ

And yet… I still want to talk to him. I miss him. And at night, when I can’t sleep, it hits really hard.

I think I’m wasting my vacations. I spend all my time in my room and never leave the house, nor do I talk to my friends. All I do is stay on my phone and draw. (⁠￣⁠ヘ⁠￣⁠;⁠)

Even though it doesn’t bother me, it’s only fun up to a certain point.

I really don’t want classes to start. For weeks I’ve looked at myself in the mirror, or in any reflection, and I just can’t recognize myself. It’s so strange… I don’t want anyone to see me. I look so bad and I just can’t.

There was a day when I genuinely couldn’t recognize my own reflection, and I spent the entire day staring at myself in the mirror, trying to see if that strange thing was me uhh .⁠·⁠´⁠¯⁠⁠(⁠>⁠▂⁠<⁠)⁠´⁠¯⁠⁠·⁠.