#aharon

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these dots are uncommon, but not unheard of, in the Torah.

in Bereishit, when Yaakov and Eisav reunite and kiss, there are a series of dots over the word stating that they kissed. Rashi explains there that the dots are to indicate that actually, Eisav tried to bite Yaakov.

Aron in the aron (Aaron in the cupboard)

it’s taken a while, see, to know that I know that I love you, to know that I love you even when I do not feel it--when I feel detached, when you feel far, or cold, or unwanted, when I wake up and wonder why we can no longer amble up and speak to you through the wings of angels--

it does not always feel like love.

but it’s an existential knowing, and though I cannot hear your words or see a kohen clothed in blues reds purples golds and glowing stones, though I cannot kindle the lamp every night, I wake up with a berakha in my mouth and fall asleep with shema on my lips and I think, maybe this is how I know, and I think, maybe this is what it’s like to have children--

to be so wholly consumed by another.  to treat the other with love, always, even if they’ve just spilled from the crib or broken your favorite earring--because even then, their name is on your lips like a berakha, and you know that you love them, and it cannot matter if they feel the same.