#agequeer

關於我嘅基本嘢 | sum basic info about me

. ruru kappa bibi yucky pho marcelina jagoda lele乐乐

. shi hir. kid kidself. kyu kyuself. nya nyaself. chi chiself.

. cistrans intersex transgirl & pansexual manloving lesbian

. transage permatween age dysphoric chronological adult (20)

. transspecies nonhuman therian conceptkin fictionkin

. perma2010s permaregressed permachild

. wasian silesian chinese girlie (´＿｀。)ﾞ

. aspiring taxidermist & future stoner

Made some chrono peculiar userboxes!! Free to use ;3

Agequeer scene stimboard for @corvinecuriousity

So as anybody who has read my pinned will know, I’m pretty standardly anti contact (w/ a few exceptions). This of course includes the exploitation, dating, grooming, etc. of chronokids by adults. I don’t believe that children have the experience, knowledge, or understanding needed to consent to intercourse or romantic relationships with adults.

(Of course, like most people, i don’t believe this usually includes relationships like 17x18.)

HOWEVER, as a nuerodivergent, agequeer, xenoage, and transage individual I have a hard time gauging the maturity and understanding of somebody based on age. I am consistently surprised by how much young children understand the world around them, which usually far surpasses mine at that age.

I didn’t suffer academically, so it was never exactly “caught” by the adults around me just how little I knew about the world, culture, society, or sexuality, especially since I’ve always had social anxiety that kept me from fully expressing my confusion. I hated it, but never had the words to express how I felt. I was incredibly socially sheltered due to my own social anxiety and my only real way of learning about the world was through YouTube (Which usually just consisted of Minecraft and Warrior Cats).

To learn that so many people, at the ages of 12-14 know about politics, culture, society, or sexuality is still hard to grasp for me.

All of this to say, I don’t fucking know whats an okay age gap or not. You could tell me 14x16 isn’t okay and I’m not sure that I would have the means to argue with that sentiment. Neither would I be able to argue w/ the idea of a 14 and 18 yo getting together, because I have no experiences to base my morals (as far as age goes) off of.

My relationship with age is atypical. Just because I don’t believe I had the capacity to consent when I was 16 (or even 17), doesn’t mean I can speak for everybody. I’m 19 and still barely know how I’m supposed to socialize, nevermind find myself in the world and make life-changing decisions for myself. I feel like a scared child and if it were up to me, society would still consider me an immature child (inability to consent and all).

Maybe 14yos can consent, I wouldn’t know. Maybe they can realistically have jobs and drop out of school and live independently. Maybe they can have sex and do drugs and drink alcohol, and do it all as responsibly as an adult, I can’t say any differently.

Maybe 14 year olds are more mature than I am.

When I discovered my agequeerness at like 16 and decided I was trans14, I didn’t have any basis for that. It just felt like a comfortable and safe number (and maybe I just chose it because it’s one of my favorite numbers). I don’t even know why I still consider myself trans14, because for all I know I’m trans8 or trans11 or even trans16 now. I don’t know, and I don’t think I ever will.

I’ll never know what it’s truly like to be a normal, cisage child and I’ll never know if the words I use to describe my age are accurate to the standard experiences. Maybe I’m agefluid, maybe I’m aage, I can’t tell.