jul 30 ('26)
hey guys, today I did around 2h of college prep/application related stuff, which is what I've mainly been doing since I have a college essay workshop in 10 days.
I also am trying to reignite my passion for drawing, starting with drawing thumbnails to accompany my substack film reviews. that one is from blonde death (1984) and how tammy is more of a vessel of expression for the director as opposed to a relatable teen character. if you've seen the movie, it's her in the beach scene, I know it's rough but fun fact I used to be a super good artist (I drew 5-8hrs a day) and then I sort of lost it all when I got serious about school.
I've also been thinking a lot my birthday on the 21st (full transparency the first two photos are from that day, I hate to do that but I have not been taking photos lmao). at age 17 I can't drive and don't have a job because my parents are protective of their anxious little girl. I've also never had a relationship and I'm really scared to, I put it off as figuring myself out when I was 13/14 but there will be a point where I can't do that anymore. I just feel like I dealt with mental health problems related to anxiety that didn't let me ease into adulthood and now I gotta do it all at once. I knew I'd grow up eventually, but it was super hard to conceptualize that I'd one day be 17.
another update is that I want to try vlogging for my senior year, it's probably going to be faceless as I don't want to be recognized, but why not.
anyways, there's hundreds of things I could talk about but this post is getting too long! here are my goals for tomorrow:
do 2h 30mins of college-related stuff (1h morning, 1h30mins in the afternoon)
make a schedule for when to submit fly-in program applications
learn one new skill and apply it to my drawing
annotated bibliography assignment for my english class
that's all, I promise I'll get some cool photos tomorrow ! xoxo,
anais
