Dear future me,how are things going? Did you find that dream job you’ve been talked about since you started university, the one people kept saying it was too high and you have to be open to other possibilities? How is working at the Louvre?
I wonder if you are still with my - our - boyfriend and if you have finally upgraded your relationship if you know what I mean. Or maybe someone else stole your heart along the way? Your love has always been quiet and mild, so I wonder if you cried after the broke up. You suffered, I’m sure.
How is family? Has mom got up from her feet? Has dad opened his eyes and realised how much he had made us suffer? Did he finally ask your forgiveness for all the shit you had to swallow during these years?
Dear future me, they are a lot of questions, aren’t they? But now life seems so vague and I have no direction at all. I hope you have found a place in this world - or at least something like that - and you live somewhere away from your childhood home, where you can enjoy the silence and be alone. Or maybe you are living with someone, which is also nice.
I’m doing all I can to give you the best basis for what you’ll become. I’m sure you’ll cringe looking back, just like a cringe thinking about how I was ten years ago. It’s part of life, after all.
I’m also sure you are a wonderful woman, proud and kind, who has learnt to speak for herself and doesn’t get interrupted anymore only because she is soft-spoken. Though you may still haven’t learnt how to watch people in the eyes when they speak to you. Some things never change.
I cannot wait to be you. Up to then, keep doing your best