#aeontriad

There are those that walk around as if they have the hand of God shoved firmly in their ass and expect everyone else to keep in step and time with their dance. Their divine puppetry blinding them to their abuse of others, calling out weaknesses and laughing at others when they constantly stumble. As if only to say, 'my ass-hand is better than yours.'

I have always found it somewhat alarming when one person changes to suit another. This happens in romantic relationships as well as friendships. Every scenario is different, but when you take a complete 180 in the space of about a week or so, manipulation is afoot. Very rarely does it end well, because a shift in views, behaviors, etc. are typically based on trust. Once the manipulator gets what he/she wants, something ends and trust is flipped just as fast ... humble observations, my friends. Make sure people love you for how you are and without stipulations.

I think that one of the hardest things to realize about life is that if you don't like the way things are going, if you feel like you are stuck in a cycle of suffering, or if you just feel hopeless and lost: the change starts with you. As much as we'd all like to be rescued, you have to realize that sometimes the hero in your story is you. When you dig deep and find this truth and you finally decide to stand up and refuse to be the victim, things will change. Maybe not all at once, but you have to start the change. Have the courage to take that first step and stay diligent. Recognize the patterns and refuse to take the same paths you've taken before. You have the strength and sometimes you might need a little help finding it, but the strength is yours. You own it, you are the master.

I am easily forgotten. Always have been. I guess that happens when you spend most of your life wanting to be invisible.

I've said before that I fall in love with people. This has been misinterpreted. The word 'love' in the English language is way too limited. I meet people and I start to care deeply for them. It's hard to explain. It's not really family or friend 'love' but not romantic 'love' either. It is more of a willingness to enter into a symbiotic relationship with people.