so this might totally not work but how about a scenario where Kuroo, Iwaizumi, Akaashi and Oikawa (sorry if it's too many?) had like a bad breakup with their (now) ex and they're trying to get back with her or smth and they have this one friend supporting them in the make up but also comforting and trying to distract them and stuff?? and at some point they realize they're actually in love with their friend? Or maybe she actually goes to whoop their ex's ass when she's being particularly mean đ
Hhhhhmmmm well I usually only allow 3 characters at a time, but Iâll make an exception for this one! Mostly because it has a degree of angst that I absolutely love! But please be sure to limit to 3 for scenarios! Thanks love for the request! - Admin Satori <3
Kuroo Tetsurou:
Your heart had started hurting at the beginning of this mess. Your love for Kuroo shriveling up and aching when heâd gone off and found himself a girlfriend. He seemed so happy, so content with life and excited for the future⊠youâd kept quiet⊠youâd kept quiet and settled for being his friend.
Because youâd rather be his friend than nothing at all. Confessing to him how you felt once he was happy with how things were going would only threaten your friendshipâŠ. And if you had to go on without him? You donât know what youâd do. He was your sunshine.
YetâŠ. About a week ago⊠his warm smiles seemed to dim before altogether extinguishing before your eyes when he admitted his girlfriend had dumped him.
For someone else. One of his friends from college.
âBecause Iâve got a really ugly laugh, she said it freaked her out.â He chuckled halfheartedly, shrugging easily before running his fingers through his hair - he was staring into the mirror in his bathroom. You had come over to hang out and have fun with your friend, take joy in his company⊠but this wasnât a side of Kuroo you were used to.
âAn ugly laugh? Not even!â You scoffed, âSheâs insane. Let her go ruin her life.â
But he didnât let up. He wanted her back. He changed everything about himself so she would want him back. He cut his hair - short. Cropped black hair. He pierced his ears because thatâs what his friend had.
You couldnât do anything but watch in horror as he transformed everything for her. He wore different clothes, too baggy and weird matchups. Hats and too big glasses⊠Were those prescription based? Had he really spent more money to get new frames for his glasses?
âTetsu-â But he wouldnât hear it from you. Too in his own head trying to figure out ways to change himself.
â_______, which one is better?â
Resting your hands on his, you had him lower the clothing out of the way, âTetsurouâŠ.. Letâs go out on the town todayâŠâ He rolled his eyes, about to bring up the clothes as a show of âduh thatâs why Iâm asking you what to wearâ, but you held his hands down, âDonât you have any normal people clothes?â You smiled, but the irate tick of his eyebrow had you internally shrinking away from him.
Had you said something wrong? Was this really that serious?
So you slowly pulled your hands away, down casting your gaze before stepping back, âSorry.. You probably have plans with her today, huh? Uhm⊠I guess.. Just shoot me a text if you need anything, okay?â
He didnât respond, and you took that as your cue to leave.
You didnât see him for days after that. He was busy. Taking classes on how to mask his speech to make it sound like whatever language was his mother tongue. Going shopping on his own to pick out the most similar clothing he could to the guy his ex was dating. He even changed his laugh⊠You hadnât heard his real laugh in about a month nowâŠ
If you were being honest with yourself, youâre heart would break knowing you couldnât even recreate his laugh in your memories. All you could hear is his forced laugh⊠he wasnât happy, and yet he didnât even see it himself.
But you were there for him. Sending him messages here and there, encouraging him to find himself before trying to get her back, sending the funniest of memes youâd think heâd like.
But you were hurting. More now than ever before. Because the young man you loved, the one you could see yourself with for the rest of your life⊠was slipping away. Slowly being replaced by some kind of imitation human.
Youâd had it though. You were tired of watching him water down his personality because she couldnât understand. Because she was the problem. He was perfect the way he was. âWow, youâre so much smarter than me, Iâm blown away by your brilliance.â Heâd stumble over his fast learned French, complimenting her in a language she didnât even understand but that she found âsexyâ and âhotâ.
Irritation in your veins, you simply turned to her, and her smug smile, and growled out, âYouâre a fucking idiot.â You were so angry. So furious. Before she could jump at the opportunity to shut you down, you were right there with your fury, âWhat kind of airhead are you? You donât even KNOW French and youâre forcing him to learn it? For what? A chance to be by your side? Do you know how many women would JUMP at the opportunity to have Tetsurou for who he is? Millions.â
She scoffed, âOh yeah right. He was an absolute loser before I-â
âNo! No he fucking wasnât!â You completely lost tack of where you were, your anger getting the better of your words, of your thought process. âHe was smart! He still IS smart! Way more âbrilliantâ than you! He learned French⊠in 2 weeks! Just to impress you! He changed everything about himself for you! And youâre still seeing someone else? Why even drag him along if youâre not going to commit? Why make him change everything about himself, everything I loved, if you donât even want him?â
A simple shrug. âIt was funny.â
No care. No sympathy. She didnât care. She didnât love him. He was her toy and she was having fun.
You didnât even notice when you raised your hand to hit her.
But another hand held you back. âHow cute~! You were pining this whole time? Oh, if I had known that, I would have made him change much moreâŠâ Then she was walking away, tossing a âCome on, Tetsu~, weâve got some shopping to do~.â
âUhâŠ. Go on ahead of me⊠Iâll catch upâŠ.â
You roughly pulled your arm from his hold, but soon found all the fight had been leaked out of you in that moment of fury. You were tired. Tired and hurt.
Kuroo didnât leave to catch up, though. He stayed with you. Silent. Watching your emotions play out on your face before you gathered what was left of your strength to cover what you were feeling. Hurt. Lost. Loss. You wanted to lash out, get him away from you as quickly as possible just so you could have your alone time - time to grieve over the young man who would never want you.
âI canâtâŠ. I canât do this anymore, Tetsurou⊠I canât⊠Itâs not healthy for me to watch you lose yourself for someone like..â Your hand waved weakly in the direction his ex had walked off in, âI just.. I donât have it in me anymore.â When had your eyes welled with tears? No matter because you could feel a few of them slip passed your control down your cheeks. âI canât stand by anymore⊠I canât fight her⊠I canâtâŠ. Your heart isnât mine to fight for anymore, and that much is so fucking obvious since youâre just going to go after her and-â
Lips against yours. Hands cupping your face. You felt your heart break just a bit inside your chest at the mere idea of this being a dream or a trick. But if this were a dream or trick⊠what was the harm in indulging in the feeling of warmth spreading throughout your body?
So you fell. You fell for him harder than you had in the very beginning. Your hands held his against your cheeks, feeling his thumbs rubbing away your runaway tears, âIâm not⊠Iâm not going after her⊠Iâm not going anywhereâŠâ Was that a choir singing in your ears at the sound of his real voice? That didnât help dry your tears, but it had your heart swelling in your chest.
Kuroo kissed you softly, tenderly, anxiety eating at his core for making you wait so long for his attention. But when youâd gotten angry at his ex⊠when youâd admitted to being emotionally worn out⊠Heâd seen you. The real you. The you who had been by his side even in his stupid choices.
âPleaseâŠ.â You whispered, âPlease stop changing yourselfâŠâ You pulled from his lips before moving your arms to wrap around him, pressing your face into his chest and letting out a quiet sob when he held you close to him, burying his face in the top of your head.
âMy laugh isnât too ugly for you?â
You scoffed around a sniffle, pinching his side, âYour laugh is my favorite laugh.â
Iwaizumi Hajime:
Why had you agreed to this? To get in better shape, sure⊠but to watch him kill himself over someone who clearly didnât have the ability to care? Not at all.
And yet you stayed. You helped. You watched and trained and worked out with Iwaizumi almost on a daily basis! You were feeling good about yourself! He would help you eat healthy and shed off any weight you felt shouldnât be there! It was great!
Except that it wasnât. Because he was taking it too far. A 5k, and you were beat! Ready to shower and rest your aching musclesâŠ. And yet he turned it into a 10k, a 15k, a 20kâŠ.. Leaving you in the dust, or forcing you to catch up with him by non running/walking means. Youâd catch up with him towards the end, driving beside where he was running on the sidewalk, calling for him to get in the car so the two of you can go relax and binge watch some TV.
But heâd only fight back. âI donât have TIME to relax, ________. I have to keep working out. I donât want her to think Iâm lazy or getting fat.â
His ex. Sheâd pointed out his âchubby cheeksâ before breaking up with him⊠and now he was obsessing over it. Trying everything in his power to bulk up his body and slim down his face⊠Did he really look chubby to everyone? Did his efforts at the gym not translate into his physique?
You had lost count how many times youâd told him he looked amazing, that his arms were big enough to squish a watermelon between them or that you could hand wash your clothes on his absâŠ.. He could probably outrun a goddamn cheetah⊠and yet he didnât stop. He didnât quit.
It wasnât healthy. You were in your peak condition - where you wanted to be in terms of body weight and eating routines. You were feeling amazing! Endorphins firing off when they were supposed to, anxiety and depression long gone from your mind because you were taking care of the root of them⊠You were in the best shape youâd ever been and you couldnât be happier!âŠ.
But you could. You could definitely be happierâŠ. If heâd stop killing himself over his ex.
âHajime, for fucks sake⊠Youâre not even eating right anymore!â
âI canât eat, ______. Iâm just going to get fat and look like a damn hippo next to her. Gotta be in my best shape.â Heâd brush you off, even going to move past you towards the weights he had in his home. Heâd spent so much money on gym equipment - because the gym heâd gone to had noticed his unhealthy habits and actually banned him from going back.
Leaving you to be the only amount of reason he might listen to.
It wasnât working though. He wouldnât listen to you. Not when you pointed out his faulty thinking, not when you showed him videos saying what he was doing was unhealthy, and not when you practically begged him to come to his senses.
Stubborn foolâŠ. But you loved him. You loved him for his heart, for his thoughts⊠for his kindness and thoughtfulness towards others⊠You loved him for who he was⊠not for how he looked - though he looked absolutely delicious. And yet⊠He didnât see that.
You couldnât keep this up. Youâd stopped working out with him. Stopped spotting him when he lifted weights⊠At one point, youâd stopped talking or visiting him altogether.
He hadnât noticed.
That probably hurt the most. The fact that you could disappear and he wouldnât notice⊠Not how he was now. Before his ex? He would have physically gone to your house to check on you⊠but now? After her? After her thoughtless heartbreaking lies? âŠ. He only thought of her, of how to better his body for her pleasure.
But you couldnât take it any longer. Sitting there alone in your home⊠wondering what he was doing, wondering if heâd eaten at all or if heâd had any water⊠Why was he killing himself for her? Why? You loved him⊠You loved him no matter what, but watching him bend himself brokenâŠâŠ
Iwaizumi was lying on his back on his weight bench when you entered his home. â______! Come spot me.â You didnât fight, you followed his instructionâŠ. But irritation boiled your blood when he lifted the weight off itâs support before you were in place⊠So you did something that rational thinking you would forever be embarrassed about.
You straddled him.
Legs on either side of his hips, you sat casually on his pelvis, hands under the steel rod he gripped in his hands. âWha-what the hell are you doing?â He grunted out, forcing his mind on the weight shaking in his hold and not the pressure of your body on his. âFuck, help me?â
âThis is literally half the weight you were able to lift last monthâŠ..â You noted, the muted anger clear in your voice. But you made no move to help lift the weight from him. Instead you grabbed the steel from the top and pulled it down so it was over his chest, then you were leaning down on it.
Iwaizumi let out a gasp of a squawk, â________! Stop!â He called, his own irritation in his voice, he was getting angry with you⊠but you knew this was the only way for him to see.
So you leaned a bit harder on the steel bar, feeling his arms shaking as they struggled to keep the weight from âcrushingâ him⊠though you knew it wouldnât harm him⊠His muscles were so weak from overuse, he needed to rest⊠if he rested, you knew this weight wouldnât have any chance against him. Yet he struggled. Because he was unhealthy. He was weak.
âYouâre a goddamn fool, Hajime. In your drive to get strong, to be the biggest meat head in the whole world, youâve made yourself the weakest human Iâve ever known.â
His green eyes showed his anger, showed his boiling rage, âGet. Off. Of. Me.â
You smirked, âMake me. Big strong Hajime⊠Iâm sure you could toss a little one like me around like a ragdoll⊠So why donât you?â His arms continued to shake as he held off the weight, and you felt disgust in your stomach at the sight of him, âBecause you canât.â You roughly pushed off of him, moving to stand behind the weight bench and pull the steel bar to its support rings.
Iwaizumi didnât move, gasping for air as he stared up at you, his expression showing his angerâŠ. But his eyes⊠His eyes showing his fear, because you were right. He knew you were right this whole time. âWhy do you care? Iâm trying to getâŠ.â He panted for much needed air, his lungs burning from the exhaustion making itself known.
âBecause Iâm literally watching the man I love kill himself. Youâre wasting away to nothing but skin and bones, all your muscle is falling apart because all you do is wear it downâŠ. Soon enough you wonât even be able to hold your own head up and you know what? Sheâs not going to want you back. Not then, not now, and not when you eventually end up in an early grave because your heart canât handle the effort your exerting.â
No tears. You were quite proud of your explosion. In most cases where you were angry, you couldnât get your words out clearly, or youâd lose your train of thought⊠but youâd been thinking about him nonstop since heâd been dumped⊠since heâd started this whole insane power trip.
The silence was deafening.
âI owe you⊠so much, Hajime. Because you helped me. You pulled me out of his swirling hole of darkness⊠and you pushed me to better myself⊠Iâm healthy. Iâm able to run a 5k without dying after a couple feet⊠Iâve been eating healthy and all my inner demons are being starved because I absolutely love myself nowâŠ..â You looked down at where he lay, limp and weak⊠and you wondered if this was the first break his body has had since the breakup. âBut Iâm not happy, Hajime⊠Iâm not. I canât be. Watching you do this to yourself⊠Youâre in the top percentile in terms of body mass and weightâŠ. But youâre not stopping⊠Youâre wearing yourself down day by day, hour by hourâŠ. Not eating because she said youâve got chubby cheeksâŠ.â
Iwaizumi looked away, feeling his heart ache. âDo I still have chubby cheeks?â
âYeah, you do.â Was your immediate answer, and his green eyes were back on you in an instant - he took insult to your telling him the truth. But you let out a sigh and moved to stand beside the weight bench, grabbing his arm and pulling him to sit up. He struggled to help you, everything about his body felt heavy, felt tired and nonresponsiveâŠ. But you didnât seem worried. âThatâs not going to be something you can change thoughâŠ. Youâve lostâŠ. Nearly a quarter of your body weight⊠and you still have chubby cheeks⊠I think theyâre just genetics.â
You playfully pinched his cheek, and he let out an irritated huff, âHow could you love someone whoâs got a fat face?â
His body slumped, and you couldnât tell if it was on purpose, against yours, leaning into you. You wrapped you arm around his waist, and rest your head on his as it laid on your shoulder. He needed your strength right now. âHey now, chubby doesnât mean fat. Youâve got a cute face.â You smiled, hearing his unintelligible grumbling. âPleaseâŠ. stop.â You whispered, struggling to keep the emotion out of your voice⊠this was the first time in a long time youâd been able to talk to him about anything other than a workout plan.
Pressing a kiss to his forehead, you squeezed your arm around his waist, feeling him flinch at the minimal pressure, âAh! Alright alright! JeezâŠ.â He hissed out, letting out a exhausted sigh, âThen⊠Could you help me get better?â
Vulnerable⊠You knew it was a long road before he was back to who he used to be⊠But if he wanted you to help himâŠ
âAndâŠ. When Iâm feeling better and Iâm able to actually walkâŠâ He cleared his throat, and you could feel the warmth of his face against your shoulder as he blushed, âWill you let me thank you by taking you out to dinner?â
âUhâŠ..â There goes your confidence in your words⊠You hadnât expected that. Now it was your turn to blush, feeling your heart slamming against your chest as you watched his shaking hand take yours on your lap. And you knew he was shaking because he was weak, but a part of you felt as if he were shaking because he was nervous. âUhmâŠ.â You cleared your throat, âY-yeah⊠I-Iâd love toâŠ.â
Akaashi Keiji:
So very flashy. How annoying⊠Your eyes traveled between the cool and collected Akaashi, your close friend⊠the man you lovedâŠ. To his girlfriendâŠ. Who didnât seem to care who was staring as she cooed and reacted loudly to the container Akaashi was currently offering her.
âOh my GOD! Keijiiiiiiiii! These are so pretty!!!!â Pearls. A pearl necklace and matching earrings. She took the jewelry out of the container before tossing the velvet box in your genera direction, âOooooh these are cute.â Akaashi watched patiently, though there was pride in his eyes⊠He was happy. He was content in her reaction because it meant he did good in shopping for her. But before he could really be proud, she turned to face him seriously and grab his hands, âOkay, so whereâs my 4 months and 1 day anniversary gift?â
Your lips rolled inward and your eyebrows rose in your surprise at her greediness. But you remained silent. Akaashi had invited you out to hang out with him and his girlfriend, so pointing out her gold digging tendencies was definitely out of line. Akaashi stared at her in surprise, his eyes widening as her eyebrows furrowed in confusion at the time lapsed, â4 months and one day?â He asked, repeating what she said to make sure heâd heard her correctly.
She rolled her eyes, tugging on his hands like a child on the verge of a tantrum, âWell, duh, Keiji~! Everyday with me is a blessing, right? Donât I deserve nice things?â A pout and Akaashi was letting out a tired sigh before using one of his hands to pull out his wallet. âI want something prettier than the pearls! Something that glitters in the light!â
âSomething expensive.â You muttered under your breath, feigning innocence when her head turned to acknowledge you.
âYou donât want me to be as boring and ugly as ______, right? Look at her~ No jewelry or anything pretty at all!â She huffed, pulling her hands from his and crossing her arms over her chest.
Insulted, but not really bothered, you simply rolled your eyes. Akaashi, though, didnât seem to notice the jab in your looks, his fingers delving into his open wallet before pulling out a mind boggling amount of money for her.
She happily plucked the money from his fingers, and as he leaned down to press a kiss to her lips, she held up a finger to stop him. âAh ah ah, no kisses. Not until I get my shiny stuff.â Then she was turning and prancing off in the direction of one of the most expensive stores in the city. Leaving you and Akaashi.
âWell, itâs really nice to see you, KeijiâŠ. Whatâs been going on?â The idea of bringing up his girlfriends actions had you internally cringing. You didnât want to talk about it. That was his life, his choice. And while you were pining for his attentionâŠ. You couldnât force him to look your way in anything other than friendship.
His green eyes met yours, and your heart squeezed in your chest. He looked so tired. So exhausted. Had he been sleeping well lately? âWork. Honestly,â He smiled halfheartedly, âThis is the first time Iâve been in public that wasnât work.â His hum trailed off into silence. His eyes seemed to drop at bit, and you had to hold back the impulse to stroke his cheekâŠ. That wasnât something for you to do.
Heâd been working nonstop. You knew. Pearls? On his salary? He must have been saving up for weeks. He probably even went into his savings account to pull for it⊠and you KNEW he hated dipping into that account! âHow many hours this time?â
Akaashi checked his wrist watch, âTechnically, this is only my lunch hour Iâm using⊠I still have to go back into the office.â He must have seen your disapproving expression, his eyebrows furrowing as he looked in the direction of where his girlfriend had gone, âIâll be fine. Work isnât horrible..â
âYou look like you havenât slept in days, KeijiâŠ.â
âIâm fine, ______.â Was his curt response, wounding your already aching heart. You didnât say anything more, allowing him to make his own decisions and run his own life the way he thought was bestâŠ.
Yet you regretted not saying anything that day.
Because it only got worse.
Heâd stopped texting you, stopped talking to you - and when you reached out to him⊠he only left you on âreadâ. Was he ignoring you? Was she poisoning him to leave you alone? Or was he genuinely upset with what youâd said that day?
But you were right, and you wouldnât let his reaction to you make you question yourself. He was harming himself because she liked nice, material things⊠She liked expensive things, and he liked her - so he was going to bend over backwards to get her the nice expensive toys she wanted in that present moment. By any means necessary, you knew, because he was a loyal young man. He was a dedicated young man, who would stop at nothing for the ones he loved.
Did that mean he loved her more than heâŠ.. no, he never loved you. You were just a friend. You were sure Bokuto was a higher tier in affection receiving than you were. Because you were his girlfriendsâ âcompetitionâ. If she didnât like you⊠Then Akaashi had no choice but to agree with her.
Anger coursed through your veins as you shot up from your couch, feeling sick to your stomach at the idea of Akaashi not caring about you because he didnât have the courage to think for himself. He was his own man. If he wanted to be friends with you, he damn would be! This silent treatment on the phone was absolutely ridiculous and you wanted some answers!
So why wait for them?
You banged on his front door, listening for any movement beyond. Another couple of bangs, and still no response. Was he home? His car was in the driveway⊠The lights inside the house were on⊠He had to be home. He was ignoring you or maybe he just⊠wasnât paying attention.
The spare key. You remembered where it was. Under the doormat, you remembered telling him it wasnât a good place to hide a key to his valuablesâŠ. Before he really had any valuables, that is. Akaashi had never been one for material things⊠Not until she came into his life and drained his wallet. She liked nice thingsâŠ. He bought himself nice, useless things to make her happy⊠He bought herâŠ. Probably thousands of dollars worth of material things.
The lights were on. Everywhere. You frowned as you slowly entered his home, closing and locking the door before turning off the lights nearest you. It was 3 in the afternoon, there was no point to having all these lights on when the windows were open.
âKeiji? You here?â You called out, a bit of a tremble in your voice - his empty house was creepy⊠No soothing presence of the man you loved to calm your nerves. âKeiji?â You tried again, slowly opening the door to his study.
Akaashi glanced over at you briefly before turning back to his laptop. He was working. On a weekend. Headphones in, you wondered if he was listening to a mundane lecture his boss had forced onto him or if it was his favorite music. He waved you off, his natural reaction to wanting to be left alone, but you only came closer. â________, Iâm working. Please leave.â
But you didnât. You scoped his office.
It was a wreck. A mess. A flimsy blanket and pillow on his office couch, books and papers littered all over the floor. Did he ever leave this room? Maybe for the bathroom since you didnât see any unsavory yellow liquid filled bottlesâŠ. yet. The only site of food or drink being contained, poorly, in the trash bin. A whole pile of energy drinks beside it.
âWhat⊠the fuck, KeijiâŠâ You had had it. You reached towards him and pulled the earbuds from him, making him lean back in shock when the lecture faded away from his hearing. âKeijiâŠ. Are you serious? Look at thisâŠ.â You waved towards the entirety of his study, âThis has got to stop! Youâre running yourself into an early grave!â
Akaashi shrugged easily, âI havenât been home enough to tidy up. I have to make sure my next paycheck is big enough so-â
âNo, no you donât, Keiji. You have to take care of yourself. You have to drop her and focus on yourself!â An empty bag from one of the expensive stores caught your eye, you grabbed it and started picking up what you thought was trash, tossing it into the bag, âWhat the fuck is going on, Keiji.. Itâs like youâre someone else entirely and I donât know what to do. Iâve tried talking to you but you only shut me out, and honestly itâs getting harder and harder for me to try to help you because I know it will only end it failure and hurt my heart even more than it already is-â
âShe dumped me, _______.â
You froze.
Dumped him? His shoulders sagged, and his hand tiredly closed the laptop in front of him before leaning back in his desk chair, his hands coming to rub at his face roughly. âShe left me⊠And I need to get this money so I can get her something nice.. So she comes back to meâŠâ
âWhy?â You didnât mean for your voice to hold the poison it did. But why would he want her back? She was only a greedy gold diggerâŠ. And yetâŠ. He wanted that? He wanted that poison in his life?
Akasshi lowered his hands, giving you a surprised look, ââŠ. Because I loved her?â
It was a lost cause. He was. Your heart ached as you dropped the bag, not finding the point in cleaning up if it would only revert once youâd left. âWhy?â You asked again, this time balling your fists by your sides, âDonât you see what sheâs doing? She just wants money. She just wants you to spend all your money on her so she can look good. Thatâs all it is. She doesnât care, Keiji⊠She doesnât give a damn! You spent all that money on her, you missed holidays, you missed my birthday, you missed your own birthday for fucks sakeâŠ. And what? She left you anyway? Donât you see?â
When had you started crying?
You roughly wiped away your tears, âSheâs not going to change, Keiji⊠And youâre a goddamn idiot if you think she is.â You sniffled, âNo one who really loves someone does that. They donât make you bend over backwards just to hang out with them, they donât love you depending on the dollar amount of a gift, or make you lose yourself to make them happy!â Akaashi was taken aback when your eyes met his. Heâd never seen you so distraught before - never seen that expression of pure torture in your eyes, âI love you, Keiji⊠and I would NEVER make you change yourself for me. I would never ask you to spend your very last dime on something stupid like earrings or a diamond necklaceâŠ.â
He was at a loss for words. âIâŠ.I know that, ______âŠ..â His voice was calm and collected, but the hesitance at the beginning of his response told you he felt out of place. He never would have expected you to confess.
âThen whyâŠâ You started only to stopâŠ. Seeing there was no point in letting him see you fall apart⊠âYou know whatâŠ.. Forget itâŠâ You sniffled, rubbing at your cheeks to clear the tears before making your way to the study door.
âN-No, wait!â His hand grabbed your opposite wrist as you went to open the door. âPleaseâŠ. Donât leave.â Your hand rested on the door as he held you in place, âYouâre right, _____. Youâre right. Iâm a complete fool⊠For not listening to you, for ignoring you⊠Youâre right⊠and Iâm so sorry⊠PleaseâŠ.â His voice cracked, and you prayed this wasnât a trickâŠ. âPlease stay.â
Oikawa Tooru:
âI think Iâm going to stop doing anything with VolleyballâŠâ
That took you off guard, and you lowered your coaching clipboard. He was the coach at his former highschool⊠and he wanted to stop? Everything? You huffed with a smirk, âYeah sure, when pigs fly, Tooru.â But when he didnât laugh, you glanced up at him once more, âWhy would you want to do that?â
Oikawa shrugged, âAh⊠Because Iâm not any good at it. Busted knee, itâs not like Iâm going anywhere grand or amazing with this kind of career.â So nonchalantly was he digging into himself, you ached at how harsh his words were. âSo might as well give it up before it wastes anymore of my life, right?â
âI thinkâŠ.â You started, âIf you enjoy what you do⊠why give it up?â
That seemed to confuse him for a couple days. Heâd come into the gym, teach the players a new tactic then spend the rest of the session in his office, making it seem like he had paperwork to do but really⊠heâd just sit there and stare off into space.
Had what you said really been that insane?
Apparently to his girlfriend, it really was. Soon enough you heard the office door slamming closed and the sound of clicking heels as she stomped to where you stood on the side of the court - watching the students playing easily with each other. She grabbed your shoulder and whirled you around to face her.
You nearly reactively punched her for putting her hands on you. But you restrained yourself in time for her to stare huffily at you, âDid you tell Tooru it was fine for him to keep this job?â
âFirstâŠâ You calmly responded, setting down the clipboard in your hands before staring at her fiercely, âDonât ever fucking touch me again.â She didnât seem to flinch, her jaw only clenching in clear annoyance with your calm demeanor. âSecondly, Tooru is a grown man. He can make his own decisions.. I just simply said-â
âOH! So it WAS you! You bitch! He needs to leave this dead end job and get something better! Something that actually suits his handicapped self! Heâs broken, ______, let him fucking leave this hellhole and get some desk job or something.â
The expression you pulled wasnât something you were used to. Disgust? Maybe mixed with humor? Or maybe it was disgust and insult? âTooru is not broken. Not in the least. Heâs fully functioning and much stronger than he was as a teenager⊠If he wants a break from work, heâs got plenty of time off saved up-â
She scoffed, âClearly, youâre not understanding me.â Her eyes became hateful as she glared at you, âHe quits.â
A snicker pulled from your mouth at her complete seriousness, and when her fury only seemed to increase, you shrugged easily, âI canât take that from you, sorry. Tooru-â
âSTOP calling him that! Heâs MY boyfriend. You call him something formal or-â
âLike I was saying, Tooru,â You emphasized his name, âwill have to come talk to me about it if he really wants to quit⊠I doubt he does, but my office is open for any appointment he wants to set.â
Then she stomped her foot like a toddler, âDonât you realize heâs broken? He canât do anything right! Always clumsy around the house, talking about volleyball as if heâs ever going to play again, honestly, whatâs the point?â
You nodded as if you were actually listening, grabbing the clipboard now to show you were done with the conversation, âJust tell Tooru to come talk to me and weâll get it figured out. Thanks. BOYS! Huddle up!â You yelled loudly, gaining the attention of the high schoolers.
Oikawa didnât come talk to you about quitting that day. Or even that week. But she sure was in your office more often, complaining about how you were tricking Oikawa or manipulating him into staying. She was easy to handle, though⊠Kind of fun with a side of dead brain cells after each conversation with her⊠But itâs not something you could stop since she would come into the building with the request to talk to Oikawa.
It hurt you to see him having to deal with her everyday. It hurt you even more to know he was willingly staying in that kind of relationship instead of looking your way⊠But you saw him everyday, too, and you were able to talk to him as you would if he were yoursâŠ.
Yet that ache in your heart remained. Because he wasnât yours. And by the looks of that relationship, and her control over him, he never would be.
Then one day⊠out of the blueâŠ. She dumped him.
He didnât come to work for days. And you gave him time. You didnât worry about his absence because you knew what it was to be heartbroken⊠You were just stronger for how you handled yours.
By the second week of his⊠unplanned leave, youâd decided that was enough. He needed to come back to work.
When he opened his front door, you were surprised to see he looked relatively normal. Clean, put together, rested⊠He looked great! âBreaks up, bub⊠Time to get back to school.â
Oikawa frowned but allowed you into his house, â_______, I just got dumped⊠have some sympathyâŠâ
You scoffed with a smirk, âI did! For almost 2 weeks, Tooru⊠But you gotta get back to work sometime, so why not today? The kids areâŠâŠ Whatâs that?â Your eyes were drawn to a bag of what looked like charred books and magazines. Burnt to a crisp and resting by the front door to be taken out with other trash. âAre thoseâŠ.â You could make out a few titles, space and aliens and planets and starsâŠ. They were his nerd books, his favorite topic⊠Burnt and ruined. Ready to join the garbage⊠âAre those yourâŠ. Your alien books?â
He didnât meet your eyes when you looked at him in shock, simply shrugging before making his way further into his home, wanting to be away from the memory of yesterday. The memory of burning his books and interests down. âAh, whatâs the point, ______~? Iâm nearly 30 years old! Space is for kids who have a chance to get there.â He shrugged easily, as if 30 years of obsessing over the unknown was nothing to him.
âYour whole lifeâŠ. TooruâŠ.â You were speechless, how did someone handle these cases?
âShe said Iâd never make it to space, so why bother? And honestly, she was right⊠So I figured⊠why keep the clutter? Maybe sheâd enjoy the cleaner house when I win her back.â
âWin her backâŠ..â You echoed, but it didnât sound like your voice - honestly, you could barely hear your voice over the cracking of your heart.
Oikawa nodded with a smile, as if heâd done something right! âYeah! I even got rid of my Volleyball magazines and some of my previous-â
You slapped him across the face, an impulse reaction, âWhat the hell is wrong with you?â Then you were grabbing his arms, his hand coming up to rub his cheek with a sour look on his face, âAll your things? All your interests?â
He shrugged, âShe didnât think they had a point.â
Anger seized your body and you shook him in your hands as best you could⊠He just let you slightly wiggle his body, âWhat the hell is wrong with you?? Who cares what she thinks? If you liked them, why didnât you keep them?â
A laughâŠ. One of his fake laughs escaped him as he pulled out of your hold, âYouâre right, ____! Iâm just an idiot, huh?â He smiled, but it didnât reach his eyes. âJust a blind idiot who doesnât know how to make anyone else around me happy⊠I couldnât keep my girlfriend because she didnât like my stuff.. and now I canât keep my best friend because you didnât like what I did with my girlfriendâŠâ He put his hands on his hips and shook his head with a âhopelessâ smile on his face, âI just canât win, huh?â
You wanted to hit him again. You wanted to shake the sense into him. You wanted to yell and tell him how wrong he was for thinking so lowly of himself and allowing the ideas of others unhappiness change who he was.
But you could only stand there in shock.
âIâŠ. I loved your interests⊠Tooru⊠I loved hearing you talk about aliens⊠Or space in general⊠Hell, I didnât understand half of what you were talking about, but I loved hearing you talk about itâŠ. And Volleyball?â You let out a huff of disbelief, âI fucking TOOK the job as the team sponsor because you were the coach! You know I didnât know a thing about Volleyball before youâŠ. And you were nice enough, sweet enough, to take the time out of your busy day to talk to me about it and show me videos of you playing in the pastâŠ..â Your heart leapt into your throat, âAnd⊠And youâre telling me you⊠You just⊠got rid of everything?â
His eyebrows furrowed, his heart hammering in his chest. He was upset you hit him⊠but maybe you were right to. Maybe he was losing his mindâŠ. Heâd gotten rid of everything⊠for her⊠but you⊠You liked those things, so why had he gotten rid of everything because she hadnât?
âI⊠I donât knowâŠ.â
Pity filled your heart. Pity for his confused head, his foggy thinking⊠sheâd wrapped herself so much around him, constricted his air and reasoning so much that even after her releasing him⊠he was still affected by her poison. âOh, TooruâŠ.â
Tears filled his eyes, âI⊠I donât know, _____! I donât know why I did it! I donâtâŠ. I didnâtâŠ.â He reached up and wiped the tears leaking down his cheeks, âI just.. She didnâtâŠâ Realization of what heâd done was finally setting in and you could see he deeply regretted everything heâd done. âOh my godâŠâ He slowly lowered himself to sit on his couch, slouching forward as he covered his face with his hands, feeling shame wrapping around his bodyâŠ
You joined him on the couch, not giving him a chance to argue before you were wrapping your arms around him and pulling him close to you, âItâs not your faultâŠ.â You whispered quietly, but he only shook in your hold. Heâd gotten rid of his most prized possessions⊠Without even pausing to think if it was a bad ideaâŠ. âShe hurt you, Tooru⊠She dug herself into your life and uprooted everythingâŠ.â He closed his eyes tightly, wishing what heâd done was just a bad dream⊠that heâd never met her⊠thatâd heâd just gathered the courage to be with you from the beginning! âAnd when youâre betterâŠ. Feeling better or thinking betterâŠ. Weâll go get cooler stuffâŠ. Cooler Alien things and space stuffâŠ.â
Oikawa felt guilt and shame pinching his heart. Here you wereâŠ. Supportive and sweet⊠offering to help him when he was the most idiotic of people to fall for someone so evil⊠and yet⊠He hadnât seen that before. Heâd chosen to be blind to it. Because his ex had chased him⊠And he liked being chased - but you⊠You waited. Patiently, you waited for him to come to his senses.
You just wished youâd been more proactive in voicing your opinions of his ex. Maybe it would have saved his alien books and volleyball stuff. âThank you⊠For slapping meâŠâ That took you offguard, too, and you couldnât help but feel a rush of deja vu at his ability to keep you on your toes⊠But you could only laugh in surprise. âSeriously⊠If you hadnât slapped me..â He trailed off, knowing heâd been under his exâs spell before youâd hit himâŠ
Humming with a small smile, you squeezed him in your hug, âThank me by talking to me about space and volleyball.. Or anything else you likeâŠâ He blushed deeply⊠You could feel the warmth and wondered what he was thinking about, âSo what do you li-â
âYou.â Oikawa blurted out, feeling his face light on fire with his embarrassment, âI like you⊠A lotâŠâ










