#actuallyschizophrenia

i get annoyed with people saying “you’re not you when you’re psychotic” like i understand not being in your “right mind”, but my ability to be myself doesn’t change just because my ability to reality check is diminished. it’s the natural state of my brain; i feel less myself when i’m super sedated on medication. do i want to be in psychosis? absolutely not. but do i want to be told that my sense of self is inherently wrong? also no. i know the sentiment of “if you can’t handle me at my worst you can’t handle me at all” isn’t the best, but seriously, if you stop seeing me as me when i’m psychotic and see me as a problem to be fixed, i don’t want you in my life

When you can’t figure out a safe food.

God being on the schizophrenia spectrum really just be like: ?!???????????!!!!!!!!!????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????huh wtf is going on ????????????????????? A shadow people???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????incoherent sobbing?????????????????????????????????? I want chicken Alfredo?????? Is it bedtime sleepy sleepzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzwakes up to again: ???????????????huh wtf is-

It's ok if you're fragile right now. Its ok if little things set you off and you can't handle stress or conflict and you're easily disturbed. It's ok. You don't have to be made of stone all the time. Be gentle with yourself in this time. Avoid what you need to, steer away from the things that will send you spiralling, even if other people think you're being "temperamental" or "too sensitive". You're going through something. Have some forgiveness for yourself in the moments when you're not as strong and resilient as usual.