#actually ace

I think what people have difficulty with is the idea that there are people out there who aren’t experiencing sexual attraction at all until a certain point, if ever, because we’re taught that sex, libido, and sexual attraction are all the same, both in and out of queer spaces.

And when you’re learning about asexuality and demisexuality, you may learn that people have romantic and aesthetic attraction separately from sexual attraction, and that sexual and romantic attraction aren’t necessarily intertwined, and that may challenge your worldview on sex.

But “I trust you enough to have sex with you” isn’t the same as “I’m not sexually attracted to anyone but you, and the reason I’m sexually attracted to you now after we’ve established this close bond is literally because of the bond of trust we’ve been able to form”.

It’s easy to see how those can get conflated. On the surface, if you’re unfamiliar with asexuality, they may sound the same. But it’s important to acknowledge the difference between “no sex until I trust you” and “no sexual attraction unless I trust you and maybe not even then”.

Demisexuality is housed under the asexuality spectrum. It’s part of the gray area between being allosexual and asexual. It’s part of why the definition for asexuality includes “little to no sexual attraction”. It’s a mostly asexual experience with an asterisk.

While being demisexual may have impacts on a persons sexual activity, even demisexuals have a varied relationship to the act of participating in sex. Libido and sexual attraction are not always intertwined either, which can make telling the difference tricky.

I think of sexual attraction as libido that has a compass. Since I rarely ever experience sexual attraction, but do have libido, it’s noticeable for me when that libido actually has a direction to go, rather than being a floating, nebulous, independent thing.

Remember, not everyone is demisexual. There’s a difference between waiting to have sex and not having sexual attraction at all until a certain point. This also inherently ties demisexuality to romantic attraction and relationships, and not all demisexuals are alloromantic.

Forcing aro and ace people into amatonormative relationships is NOT the woke take you think it is you aphobic pieces of shit. And yes, I know what y’all in fandom are doing with your favorite aro/ace characters. I know damn well that when you ship an aro character with an allo character you’re not putting them in QPRs, you’re not writing that relationship within the lens of the aro character’s identity. You’re just reassuring yourself because “oh thank god, aro/ace people can still date, they can still have sex, they’re normal!!”

WELL GUESS WHAT YOU PIECE OF SHIT. NO WE’RE NOT FUCKING NORMAL. WE GET SHAMED BY OUR PEERS, BY OUR FAMILIES, BY OUR CLOSEST CIRCLES BECAUSE “OH YOU JUST HAVEN’T FOUND THE RIGHT ONE YET”. WE GET DRUGGED AND TORTURED BY PSYCHOLOGISTS BECAUSE ACE AND ARO PEOPLE STILL GET SENT TO CONVERSION THERAPY EVERY-FUCKING-WHERE. WE GET RAPED EVERY FUCKING YEAR BECAUSE OF OUR IDENTITIES.

I've identified as asexual for around three years now, and it's been an important part of my identity and the way I see myself, so today feels very significant to me.

Asexuality is such a wide spectrum, and I'm so happy to be a part of a community so diverse and full of different kinds of people, all coming together under this one word.

Being asexual, of course, comes with its own unique challenges, but there's also a beauty in finding a label that you feel comfortable in, and a community you feel happy calling your home. To all who have found that in asexuality, I'm so happy that you're here, and remember to take care of yourself.

We are here, we are queer, and we aren't going anywhere anytime soon.