#acting!!!!!

I was way too ambitious. Me, coming into contact with his life? You were right. He was beyond me to begin with. I knew that from the get-go. Even so... whenever... he treated me kindly... I felt pain. But it wasn't all pain. He also made me happy. Yeah. I got jealous... Yeah. I longed to see him... and I wanted to run. Yeah. Yeah. I wanted him... to recog- to recognize me most. But I... I hate myself... for being like this. I'm sorry.