i really dislike how this culture of success has made me feel about skill and achievement. sometimes i talk about things that matter to me—things i care about, like literature or ancient history, and someone will inevitably comment smth like ‘well it’s easy for you because you ___ so much’ and i feel too embarassed and ashamed to admit how much time i’ve spent working in those areas and trying to understand things. (ctn'd) (1/2)
(2/2) it feels shameful to admit that, yes, once i spent an hour trying to understand a sentence about transliteration and, sure, i understood it eventually, but it was so challenging. it almost seems insulting to myself not to admit how hard i try and how often i fail, because that makes my successes so much more important. but at the same time, it’s seems shameful to admit that i can’t do something. and i really hate that.unfortunately there will always be rude people like that who dismiss your efforts. it’s difficult but you really do just have to ignore them - after all, you know how hard you work, you know how much effort goes on behind the scenes into understanding all of your studies. if they choose to dismiss that just bc you’re x or you do y so much, then that’s their prerogative. you just have to focus on yourself and continue on doing what you’re doing, because you’re doing great. also, it’s not a bad thing to fail?? everyone has weaknesses and everyone has inevitably struggled with something at some point. you need to let go of perfectionism bc it makes everything so much harder. no one expects you to do everything 100% every time, and if they did then it’s just plain unrealistic. we’re human and we naturally mess up from time to time. is that something to be ashamed of? no!! we learn from our mistakes and it helps us develop and improve each time. don’t be afraid to make errors. they help you grow.