hit the reset button
things lately have been rough. iβve fallen into a bit of a depressive slump, and i know that if i continue down this path iβm going to slide straight down into a depressive episode. which, frankly, would be rational considering the situation that iβm in right now. the world is undergoing serious trauma, and i know that personally, deep dissociative and depressive episodes have helped me to make it through traumatic experiences so that i could deal with the aftermath later. but i also know that iβve come a long way from the person i was when i first had to learn to cope with trauma, and i think that maybe this time, i can cope better by doing what i can to keep myself on track in terms of recovery.
which means pulling myself out of this mood, stat.
and iβve got a lot to catch up on! i need to email my doctors, my vice principal, and the college admissions people. i need to do a hell of a lot of chores, get back on track with schoolwork, start actually going to class again, and make myself follow a meal schedule again.
and i know that personally, the most effective way to do this is all in one big push, and to let the momentum carry me through to the other side. i also need to fix my sleep schedule, so iβm going to kill two birds with one stone by putting myself through a hard reset tonight!
first, i need to get ready. change my clothes, have a bowl of cereal. block distracting websites and turn off my phone. meditate for ten minutes and then take my medication. and then the real party starts!
household things:
put away clean laundry
toss unsalvageable clothes
clean study space
replace sheets and make bed
clorox the bathroom
online
email vice principal
email doctor about birth control refills
email phys ed teacher about workout logs
email college admissions about name change
order new underwear
find a laundromat for weighted blanket
academic
write up my weekly schedule
homework for monday
missing ap bio labs
workout logs for this and last week
find out what integrals are
missing calc homework (maybe)
and hopefully thatβs it for the night, but weβll see! iβll be online for the next eight hours or so, so definitely drop into my inbox or dms if you want to chat or ask me studyblr-related questions. wish me luck!
