Eddie gets top surgery and even when he's still super bandaged up he keeps grabbing his chest and giggling, like straight tee hee shit

The scene where Neil replies with ".. nothing..." when his father aggressively asks him what he feels is definitely the one where I relate to him the most out of the entire movie. His father took that as Neil coming to his senses and giving up on the, to him, foolish idea. Whilst Neil meant that he truly felt nothing. The pain in his eyes, the loss for words, the long silence before answering, didn't go unnoticed, it went uncared for by his parents. Neil didn't just give up on his dreams, he gave up on everything. He knew that no matter how loudly he yelled, it'd fall on deaf ears. No matter how much he cried and begged, it would mean absolutely nothing to the people who were meant to support him the most. His nothing was Neils way of finalising his exhaustion and the emptiness he felt on the inside. When people say that his behaviour was reckless and that he was overdramatic it really makes me realise how many people went their entire lives being heard that they don't understand what its like to be completely disregarded. To have "Is it better to speak or to die?" mean the same exact thing because your voice meant nothing regardless.