#about d

It's a relationship thing! If you are on D's romance route and your relationship is steady, they will always abstain as to avoid drawing any attention towards your relationship. As their affection for the Crown increases they become more wary of a potential scandal or the Crown's reputation being harmed in any way by perceived attachment.

i was tagged by the wonderful stupendous @heisallandheismore thank you love for tagging me in this, i’m excited to give a sneak peak of my WIP :)

rules: post the last 7 lines of your current wip and tag 7 people to keep it going

after the long haul that was my Pacififc Rim AU I am finally working on my promised “Nicky plays the violin” fic with some wonderful Italian composer/Stridivari string-maker madness. 

enjoy my 7 sentences!:

Some would think Nicolo supernatural, with the frequency at which he improves, but Yusuf knows he is simply that good. He was born with the tune of songbirds in his ears, guiding his every footstep, every press of his fingertips on the board of the fiddle. 

Through the connections of some noblewoman Andromache knows, Nicky is brought to the attention of the concertmaster for the operas at the teatro, who is understandably besotted when Nicolo plays for him, all soaring melodies and soft accompaniments.

It is the duty of the concertmaster’s standing as a musician to let such a talented violinist into his pit only off of one audition. 

Nicolo’s pretty face works wonders too, is what Andromache says about it all.

Nicolo rolls his eyes, but hands over the tickets to the next show into her outstretched hands. 

Still, Yusuf thinks, she is not entirely wrong.

There are two kinds of when:

1) when all of this will finish and he will be free?

2) when all this bs will finish and because he is still playing the game?

Now i’m the first when but I have to be honest, more or less in 2015 the second when was my when. I was frustrated, i saw everything like a lack of efforts by him. I started to worry a lot that year… i didn’t like it what i saw and i resented him and his wonderful S.O. because they were not pushing in the toilet all the shit: what is money when well being is involved?

Then 2016 arrived and in my opinion it was the worst year but at the same time, even if only few noticed that, the one in which i saw the best efforts from both of them to give us messages… trying to preserve a part of the fandom that is basic to obtain a good conclusion of this mess. It still pains me to think about it and i swear it’s the reason why i decided to be hardcore with my opinion here. 2016 was the year that erased from my mind the thought “They are compromising for money”. 

2017… well, most of you are tired of the charade, a bunch of you are terrible with your reactions people and this is so wrong on so many level and first of all for your health because i think that you are stressing yourselves without reasons…but it’s your life so… whatever. 

What i like of 2017 is that i’m seeing him alive again. Tired (too much), too thin ( i feel like a grandma who wanna make him eat) and sometimes so fed up of this mess that i can’t help but be worried. But it’s better than 2016.

Keeping my eyes open and understanding some things here and there, i honestly think that we could be near the end. And i won’t for anything in the world let the pr shit and the beard shit ruin all of this here. Will I seem crazy? Whatever… i was even blocked by a couple of people of my fandom (the cc one, let’s underline that) because i don’t hate D and i think that he’s obliged to do specific things and he’s not an accomplice . Let’s say it: it’s so absurd that it’s funny af. 

3. I’m super picky about fandoms. I’ve only read fanfics from five fandoms - Dragon Age, Star Ocean 3, Kingdom Hearts, Yuri on Ice, and Free!. When I read a fanfic from a thing, that’s how I know I’m really super into it. It’s kind of a special thing. I’m a voracious reader, though, so once I dive in....I will read fucking novels of fanfic.

4. Winter is my favorite season and I love the cold and snow. I often ache for frozen air, skies on my feet, and thigh-deep snow to play on. I have dreams about it even.

5. I don’t really have nightmares. I do have dreams with uncomfortable moments, however - a reoccurring one I particularly hate is when my teeth fall out and I keep having to hold all my loose teeth in my mouth so I don’t lose them. My jaw feels all out of whack and everything. Bleh.

6. I consider myself really confident and brave, willing to do all sorts of stuff and walk into whatever situations. There is one area I have intense anxiety, though - I am emetophobic. I’ve suffered panic attacks from someone vomiting in my vicinity before. Due to this, I tend to avoid situations where I know there will be people drinking a lot. I get anxious about them getting sick and it becomes not fun fast.

7. I feel I’m better at reading an animal’s body language than reading people’s. My falconry trainer told me last week that “I’m a natural” because “I just read them” and that gave me loads of warm fuzzies. I certainly feel completely at ease with them. I love ‘talking’ to my cats and reading my snakes and playing with my fish.

8. Oddly enough, though, I’m kind of bad at dogs. I grew up with one who I adored and enjoyed training, but when someone else’s dog runs up and jumps on me, I’m at a loss. I wish people were better at keeping their dogs calm cause it makes me nervous (which I know the dogs then pick up on and then get more excited ugh). It’s not as if I’m here to train someone’s dog for them either.

9. I want to draw a webcomic someday. I’m frustrated at my people-drawing skills right now, but I know I’ll break through eventually with enough practice. Just gotta practice, practice, practice. Like I have been my entire life.

10. I’ve started writing. Mostly incredibly self-indulgent short stories and some pornographic shit but gods, wow, I love doing it. I blame RP for getting me into it, but it’s only a good thing. I have a gajillion stories in my head, and I gotta write that webcomic too! I know like with drawing, writing will come with practice.

Hmm, have you tried communicating your feelings to her and discussing what about the power dynamic concerns her?

Like say, if a potential relationship might be politically devastating to your reputation and she happened to have trauma regarding a disgraced family member... sounds like she could be getting into her own head about it because of external pressure despite being genuinely attracted to you 🤔

It differs per love interest what changes, since it depends also on the love interest's personal character arc and how it interacts with their dynamic with the Crown. Several scenes change especially in CH9 and beyond, and so far the biggest divergences in low/high romance routes is in CH11. Basically...

R Low romance: Your Crown has a low amount of trust in R's capabilities and tends to be overprotective, feeding R's insecurity and self-esteem issues as well High romance: Your Crown trusts R to handle themselves, and there is an equal partnership where they both confide and rely on each other, allowing R to flourish

A Low romance: Your Crown prioritizes their romance with A above all else, including being a good ruler, and as a consequence A cannot fully trust the Crown - they are also reminded of their backstory, which is especially painful High romance: Your Crown knows what to prioritize when it is appropriate, and as a result A can trust that the Crown will be a responsible ruler. This is barring political disagreements they may or may not have down the line, but that's for in the future.

D Low romance: Your Crown pretty much agrees with D that duty should come above all else, allowing distance to grow between them and for the romance to fizzle out, and for D to continue to see themselves as nothing but a tool for Arsur High romance: Your Crown continues to pursue D romantically, and reminds them that there should be more to them and their life than just their duty to Arsur. Basically, leaning into the Forbidden Romance trope!!