#abof

Alright let me give yall the skinny on this, let me let yall know exactly what's going on.

A long long time ago, long before the superbowl-- okay I'm sorry let me get serious. Back in the day, I used to update fairly regularly, about once a week? Up until the point I moved out of state and my life routine was switched up. Now this switch up included a jump from just being a solo writer, to joining some role play communities.

I never imagined or intented to stop posting, in fact this was the main story that I've always wanted and still do, to finish. But as I was swept into other aspects of my adult life and other pastimes, it became longer and longer between the gaps of when I would spend mental time in this world. As the time crept by, there came a shame to it as well. A feeling of letting all my readers who's reactions and enjoyment of my work I truly cherished and love down. (Really yall were amazing for my self esteem and belief in myself as a writer and I'm forever thankful.)

Now here we sit, and it's been years, i can't shy away from that, it sucks. I dropped the ball on one of my biggest passion pieces, and large parts of me honestly moved on. Not all of me though, because really, how could I? So much of my waking time before had been spent in this little universe and love letter I created for two of my favorite characters.

As I'm sure you can tell, the point I left off was sort of...tense in the story. Really it's what I would consider the shifting point to the final third of this main storyline between Bruce and Dick. Which lowkey, as a writer scares me a bit. But more importantly, it's the large gap of time since I've deeply written for this story combined with how large it is. I've tried to reread Abof multiple times, but oh dear is it hard to reread your own work. I keep getting caught up in details and re-editing or just well overwhelmed.

I want to finish this story. And I have not only a decent sense for how the ending goes, but uh technically a few sequel works I originally thought about creating, all stuck up in my head. But I sit here, weirdly terrified of continuing? Terrified that I'll have forgotten details my readers think are important, that I'll focus too much time and words on storylines you don't care about, or I'll drop some of the side storylines that you do and that that'll be worse. I just don't have the luxury of rereading it in its whole a couple of times again, I've tried and tried but I've failed time and time again. And maybe this is all really just some big lesson to myself, in how I shouldn't be so caught up on how other people perceive how I continue the story. (And I promise, for whatever my word is worth after all this time, that I have started drafting out this last third.)

Honestly? And if you've read this far on my lengthy, not even what you asked for reply here, you a real one. But I would be blessed if anyone out there that has this fresh in mind and heart would be willing to send me what they thought were the highlights, the important bits and moments that they feel are vital to the next phase and yes, I'll even be a sport about you saying what you don't think is necessary.

I could really use some other perspective, I can't and won't promise that I will listen and abide by what anyone says, but I would read through it and really really appreciate the help and perspective into this monster.

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