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Abe and William's Initial Approach to Sexuality (and their mutual themes of repression)

Right off the bat, we're gonna need to talk about their backstory-- Who Killed Markiplier. Seeing them for who they were originally is gonna be important to unpacking how they interact in the future.

Abe's queerness is the subject of jokes from the moment he gets a major part in the story. And that's kind of all it is-- jokes. Pretty much every time Abe is on screen, he fumbles with his words and says something that sounds incredibly gay. Or, does something that's undoubtedly supposed to read as gay, and often "creepy". I'm giving a lot of these mildly offensive ones a little bit of a pass here, because they're clearly just supposed to be funny, and not taken too seriously. You could probably say the same for the ones in the future, but with the overall subject matter and general tonal shift that comes later, I'm more and more lead to believe that there's supposed to be some truth in them. At the beginning, you could probably make an argument for either direction of Abe's sexuality (either he is gay and these are all Freudian slips, or he's straight and that's the joke) but there are some that I don't think can be explained away as just verbal slips. Like how he calls just about every man in the house handsome/beautiful/gorgeous at some point, or how he constantly fondly refers to his old "partners". The more it happens, the less his verbal slips seem like mistakes, and the more they seem like his backpedaling is out of shame. Which would fit for the 20's-era time period.

On the other hand, we have the Colonel, who I would say represents repression in his own unique (but similar) way. Knowing who he is recontextualizes a lot of the imagery associated with him in WKM. One of my personal favorite details showing that being his costuming. He's dressed in all beige for most of the run time. Colorless, dull-- much like the detective. The single piece of color visible on his outfit most of the time is the bright red scarf thing around his neck. Bright red being, interestingly, the color most closely associated with Celine, his secret lover. A detail that her design parallels, in the form of a tiny pink flower on her hat. Pink flowers, as seen in Damien, are used to represent Will, and that touch of pink is the only color visible on her design.

Color is used a lot in the Markiplier Cinematic Universe, both to represent characters, and to represent a change in perspective. Which is why I think it's so interesting that, throughout WKM, these two are dressed in such similar, dull shades. A choice that only makes Will's next appearance more jarring, which brings me to my next point:

William's Acceptance of his Identity (and Abe's avoidance of his own)

The next time we see them, chronologically speaking, is in Wilford Motherloving Warfstache. In here, we get the most literal representation of stagnation vs growth yet, in the form of the way color is used throughout the film. When Abe is alone, everything is black and white, as to imitate the noir aesthetic. But when Will is around, we see the very opposite; bright color fills the screen, and only dims when Abe enters, and dims it himself.

Abe has not changed much at all from his last appearance. He's still dressed monochromatically, and he's still pouring his life into his work. His work that is, at the moment, entirely focused on William. I'm not gonna say "it's gay to be this obsessed with another man" even though it definitely is. Instead I'm more interested in the way he views him through the lens of what he's doing. If you look at his notes (which I have because I'm crazy) they spend a lot of time focusing on how he feels about the Colonel in particular. Of course, there's an argument to be made for some of it-- a lot of his notes, especially in WKM, are clearly investigating his affair with Celine, so that explains away things like the notes saying he "isn't marriage material", and the "call me" note with a lipstick kiss and a phone number. But some one of it just seems so suspiciously centered around Will's effect on him. Literally one of the things written on the chalkboard under "evidence" in WMLW is "MY FEELINGS". What did he mean by this

On the other hand, William has changed a lot since they've last been face-to-face. He's taken on an entire new alias, not to mention an entire new wardrobe. Abe comments, at the beginning of WMLW, that William was always eccentric, but that this takes the cake. Will has completely taken off the mask he was wearing in WKM. The people who knew him well knew he was "abnormal", but he kept it bottled up. Wilford Warfstache does no such thing. He's found a rich, colorful community, and is being authentic to no one but himself. He's bright, and happy, happier than he ever looked in WKM. Of course that can be in part due to the dreary tone of WKM in general, but this level of pep is completely new for him. And, deeper in the story, he expresses that it's because he sees himself as "free". He doesn't understand anything anymore, and he doesn't try to. There's no sense in trying to hunt for answers, because the only person he needs to understand is himself, and he knows exactly who he wants to be. He holds no grudges-- despite literally shooting Abe last time he saw him, he greets him fondly here the moment he recognizes him, even going as far as to apologize and give him a hug. I think there's this undeniable theme of acceptance here, with how easy he rolls with every punch thrown at him. Meanwhile, Abe isn't taking things nearly as in stride.

One of the best scenes that illustrates this dichotomy is the scene in the car. Abe has a noir-style internal monologue, and Wilford continuously, telepathically interrupts him. This, to me, reads as a very concise metaphor to demonstrate one of Abe's deepest fears-- the fear of being known truly, and intimately. Wilford being able to read him to the point of literally reading his mind terrifies him, because he views his own mind as the place to hide everything he can't externalize. A lot of his noir-style monologuing is casually recounting trauma, which is typical of the genre, but we also get more very gay Freudian slips in here (which he doesn't feel the need to backpedal on, because, usually, no one can hear them). Like: "We're gonna play pin the tail on the donkey, but he's the donkey, and the tail is my feelings." This whole scene is a metaphor for Wilford's "gaydar" to me, basically. Especially with the very blatant "I only get one night with him to fill the hole in my heart he left behind." "...Did we date at some point?" "No, we didn't date!".

I think there is some pretty obvious attraction to Will in Abe's mind, and he is simply refusing to admit it for obvious reasons. Not just the internalized homophobia, though there is definitely a lot of that, but also the fact that Will is such a dangerous and unstable person. He can't bring himself to confess, even in his own mind, that he may be interested in him for a reason that isn't just calculated, professional investigation. Which is why it's so distressing to him, when he finally realizes that all that repression was for nothing.

Acceptance

At the end of WMLW, we of course get the reveal that all of Abe's working was for nothing. He's no closer or farther to the end of the case than he was when he began, because he died in that manor, and all of his lives' work amounts to absolutely nothing. He devoted his entire sense of self to a cause that he was never going to figure out, because it's an impossible, self-defeating cause. And though he has no physical proof of his exploits, he has the feelings, and he's been ignoring those for the sake of the job. Hence why feelings was one of the only things on the evidence board-- it's literally all he has.

He sits down here, at the chair that he'd tied Wilford in before, representing the shift in power between them. He could never keep Will down, anyway; the only time Wilford was seated was when he was voluntarily choosing to. But now Abe is the one taking that seat, and Wilford is the one who stands before him, but he doesn't use this chance to interrogate him. He comforts him. He tells him he isn't crazy, and as the color around Abe drains, and he sinks back into his noir internal monologue, Will touches his face, and brings the color back. One of my favorite lines here, during the internal monologue, Abe thinks "My heart was pounding morse code in my ears, but I never learned the language" which to me just reads as a beautifully concise metaphor for him never listening to his heart, and instead trying to logically explain everything away. Something that Wilford discourages, as he gets down on his level, and tells him that some things just can't be rationalized out of existence. And what's the point in trying? His gentleness here is almost out of character here as he encourages him to try allowing himself to be himself, for the first time. Specifically, he says that, just for tonight, he should try having a little fun. And as he says it, they appear back in the club they met in earlier that night, surrounded by people and music and color.

And Abe accepts. And as he accepts, the saturation turns up even higher. Wilford wasn't the one who brought that last bit of color back, Abe was. Because he had been the one dulling his own color all along. This is the kind of metaphor you see in a cheesy queer animated short film and i LOVE IT!!!!

I just love the way Wilford talks to him so much-- specifically in assuring him that, if he wants, he can go right back to how things were before this. He's being a little presumptuous in assuming Abe would want to let loose in this way in the first place, so he's giving him the choice to back out right now if he wants. And even if he does go through with it, and ends up enjoying himself, nothing has to change. Wilford is only saying that he may be a happier person if he learns to accept certain things, including things about himself. If you want a slightly more far-fetched interpretation of events here, I think the "dancing" is honestly a fantastic metaphor for sleeping together. Like, the club Will is dancing in has always read as a gay bar to me and like???? IDK just hear me out. Spending all night with another man after your quest for self acceptance, "dancing".....ok. Im not super willing to die on this hill i just think it's a beautiful hypothetical metaphor

TLDR: I love the visuals of their differing interpretations of "freedom" that the manor/death gave them. Abe burying himself in his work, literally draining the color from his life. With the dichotomy of Wilford, who's more "himself" than he ever was, being the one to bring that color back to him and teach him that it's okay to be who he is. Idk im crazy