#aa mine

Chosen home is weaving threads unseen and building such a stunning network of lives, these strangers, all trying their best despite the way they're treated for their identities, socially imposed roles, or simple harmless acts of self expression. spreading this message relentlessly, staying kind throughout it all and brightening their community by their insistence on clinging to hope. truly, in a far off future, hopefully within our lifetimes, things will get better. And hence, we must stay alive until then :)

guys guys why i need all of u to get excited about dwy is. because. not only did they talk about sex. they played around it, expressed vulnerability, admitted desire, unabashedly put the physicality of it out in the open and laid out their preferences, boundaries AND overturned expectations in the meanwhile. literally without making it look like a contrived 'to show we do not condone lack of communication, and we're not afraid to talk about sex and the different ways to do it' thing. i mean while staying incredibly true to their characters, (as if that's too much to ask for😭) they've nailed this characterization so hard, im positively pulsing out of my skin w the high of their new development. like duang i get u my boy and i will love u alw so will qin

the socks removing scene is an undressing i dint know I needed in life this vehemently I am drinking it up w biblical levels of greed. the FUCKING tattoo being revealed and duangs grip on qin's ankles......

i am always aggrieved when characters are not let to do things they would. i imagine it's because show makers or actors are trying to follow a theme or template with the portrayal of them instead of feeling it out. i often go 'oh he would so cry here' or 'they certainly would've gone berserk with the affection there'. It is waiting for a drop to fall from welled up eyes cause no he way this character is holding it in like that after this happens to them. and for some reason it never does? They never do shed those tears? In the case of physical affection, it especially feels like shows tend to follow a template. It's like they got a set of actions on a roulette and each archetype gets 1 or 2 max. this is where dwy's beauty breaks boundaries. Qin throws out the teddy and states he chooses him without leaving any room for doubt: duang breaks into tears and begins rubbing his eyes. it's only natural and almost obvious, he'd been stewing in that insecurity for a while now, the confirmation is shattering and relieving in the bestest of ways possible. Especially to someone like duang. Who loves and loves without conditions or expectations. Cut to any number of their happy times. duang goes crazy mode with the affections and there's almost nothing scripted or choreographed about it, it's his utmost adoration for qin flowing unbridled through his entire body. In qin's case, it's in the turn of his head (cue for duang to continue w the ministrations) and the blooming quirk of his lips. their feelings show up in the way they reach out towards each other, and it's got their trademark on it. watching them be together, just the two of them, is just so delightful for this very reason. They unfold the show rather than vice verca. with each ep that comes out and as the 'talking stage' unfurls, i could just blast off into stratosphere from cuteness aggression before they're even official.

nothing like being aroace in college. im having to forge a whole new persona to coexist with these people.

the whole rented apartment sequence, give me ten thousand episodes of em just in there pls. in the novel too, one thing chusan never abandons is their rented apartment. it's basically their home, the home he bought to live in w liuyi. altho shabby and worn, much of their daily life (scarce and almost always interrupted) and intimacy unfolds there. the sequence of hcs bringing xly there for the first time plays out way differently (ahem-) but this is also great. there are some discrepancies obv but in what i think is the novel parallel of the bed scene, right before they kiss (except in the novel their first kiss is not here) there's a scene in the novel where xly sees the shadow of hcs's arm raising on the wall, as if to embrace him from behind (/caress the scars, we never know) and our much tougher novel xly braces himself for hcs to lay a finger so that he can call him out on his act and hand out a good beating. but beloved and cunning actor hcs never does touch him and goes on to act as calmly as always. lool. xly's frustration at hcs's unbroken placid streak is one of the best parts of their dynamic in the early stages.

love it for me when sleepy eyed boys make the first move like. the lazy eyes, slow blinks and slower moves. complete devastation up to a 10 mile radius. the moment qin angles himself towards duang, alarm bells start blaring in duang's head, somethings about to go down but neither him nor we know what it is and we're just holding our breaths. afgjgrruusxbue then comes the chest lay. followed by that cool scooch up to nestle in his neck LIKE. i still cant figure what u were doing up there under my boys ear qin, but oh u know you what you're playing at. you're not the only one that turned into goo duang- then that fucking kiss broskis😃the entire time duang is trying to reel in his anticipation afraid to spook qin but also having brain freeze from the sudden onslaught. in that 1 second when he closes his eyes and their lips press, the little eye twitch and kshfskjdfhkghfkghfjg. qin now wants duang to do as he pleases, he gave the sign and now is urging him to proceed w whatever. my boy takes the cue w oh so much care and patience. then in typical duang fashion, goes FERAL w it. the parting lip bite😃how he surprises himself w it, awaits scolding of some form, instead when qin keeps his eyes down and w/o looking up brushes his lip, the teensy smile that blooms on his face, realizing he's allowed, in fact, more than welcome to. nevermind the look on qins face after they break apart. the glossed eyes, somehow he looks even MORE loose limbed and soft there and i just cannot grasp this mans capability for languid sensuality. the collar grab and flicking open that singular button. putting on that show... all while duang is slipping further and further away....

quangqin levels of casual intimacy thru physical affection is a revelation to me. how is this possible, how are they so comfortable and in tune w each other. duang stims by expressing his love i get that, but how is it so natural and coordinated, no energy goes unmatched, how in the world did they find each other. i get it, it's a story but even still, dmd hit the transcendental matchmaking w pttp fr, most of all I can't wait to see what they have in store for them after dwy.