#a diary

I kind of did it on a whim, because the priority deadline is Jan 1, and it’s free, so why not? I’d rather be over prepared than under.

I’m just soo concerned about figuring out how to PAY for grad school lol. For the 5 semester program I’m looking at, it’s gonna be like $30k and that’s before books, parking pass, etc. 😬And I do NOT want to take out more loans than I have no, especially not UNsubsidized, and at that high af interest rate. I stg America does not want our asses going to grad school lollll.

My school program has quite a bit of opportunities for grants and schloarships though, so if I could manage to get a few smaller ones, that’d be tight af and be a huge help. But if I don’t get enough, it might mean waiting until 2021 😓 But I guess I’d rather do that than be severely in debt lol. 

I’m thinking I might tell me boss about how I wanna go back to school for an MSW when we do our reviews in January. I feel like she’d be sad but supportive? And obviously, it might not even happen for two whole years, so lol. That’s a scary thought too tho-- telling her!! Eeeeek. One of her best friends is a LCSW, and he works with the LGBTQ community a lot, and he’s super nice so I wonder if she’d be willing to like connect us and I could talk to him about stuff. 

So many tentative possibilities. Sooooo much can change between now and August. That is eight whole months. Hopefully in 8 months I’ve got a good enough income going in my side hustle that I can just do that for work while I’m back in school. lakjflskd BACK IN SCHOOL. The wildest and most exciting thing I have typed all damn day. I can’t wait to be a student again lol. Sigh. And I can’t wait to be a LCSW one day, and be a counselor and help people. I have sooo many ideas for ways I could help people. 😭 Just reading about licensure and the exams and the hours I have to do to get those damn four letters next to my name makes me so happy I want to cry (altho that could be bc I started my period today hahaha). It just feels so right.

If anyone has any experience applying/paying for grad school, hit ya girl up 😭