So uhhhh,
I'm gender fluid
Like,,,,
I think that's word for it?
I don't feel a set gender most of the time, and it changes frequently, like sometimes I'll be non-binary but more feminine or non-binary but more masculine and sometimes I'm a girl but more androgynous or a boy but more androgynous or pretty much any combination you can think of.
I think one of the main reasons that I didn't realize it sooner was because gender wasn't really a huge part of my childhood and it wasn't like I was sitting around pondering it. At first I just thought that childhood itself wasn't gendered and that I would grow out of it, (also keep in mind that I only learned what gender fluidity was last year) but then I didn't and that's when I kinda realized.
And also it might change in the future, just like my sexuality might. I'm only thirteen and a half (and five days) so I'm still really figuring things out. Which according to my mother's parenting books that I stole, is normal and healthy for my age. I'm still not out to anyone but my Mama and @zanalover , so to my friends who I know irl could you please not mention this to anyone?
So, in conclusion, I am gender fluid, emphasis on the 'fluid' part. Any pronouns are fine unless I say otherwise. I'm not sure if I want a different name for when I'm masculine/nb, but I will probably decide I do and if so it's El. I do request that no one call me that unless I tell them to though, people use it as a nickname for Elanor a lot and it makes me uncomfortable when I'm feeling more feminine.
