#:daisy.

I heard you like chicken. Wanna go eat soon? No one needs to know but us. I’m kidding. I feel awfully shy writing this and I have no idea why I do. You’ve always been the one good writing these, I’ve always been the one good writing sad songs and angsty stuff. Not lovey dovey. ‘Cause that’s what we are, we’re lovey dovey. We’re always so happy — okay, not really. We’re actually really angsty sometimes. We’ve been really down this months, well .. December. Haven’t we? In eight months we never fought the same amount of times as we did the past two months. Even if one time we had make up sex? I hated all of them. All of the fights. All the anxious and getting sad. I hated myself the most for always getting pissed at dumb stuff, iunno? I know you don’t blame me, perhaps that’s why you’re such a king and I’m such a … servant boy? I don’t know. But I do know you always forgive me and you never blame me, even if all I do is bullshit and get sad and arrange fights .. I mean, how do you do that? You keep saying how you admire me for not giving up on you? for not letting go of your hand and that after nine months all I still want is to be by your side and kiss you. Why would you admire me & not yourself? If anything I fell in love with you because you’re you, I love you every day because you act like you do. Because you hide your face in the crook of your neck  and no matter what you do, you always bite my neck. I love you because I already know how to make you happier, how to make you smile. How you enjoy me leaning forward to kiss you, because even when we kiss, you have this need of asking me so i can cup your cheek and kiss you. Isn’t it special? That you even notice a small detail as that? I love you because you’ll always tease me about being younger than you, yet you won’t ever stop me from letting me be the … well —- oppa? aha. I love you, because you’re you. So if anything, look at the mirror and admire yourself, because I do too. I admire how you smile or how you laugh. I love how you dance on stage and how well you sing. When you flirt with the camera, it’s definitely something I always look forward in a live or a dance practice. You’re a wonderful person, so admire yourself because you got me under your trap. And all you did? Was being yourself.

Yours,