#365in2018

Beware the Ides of March

You could be stabbed

Or fall in love

Which would be far worse

You’ve spent far too long protecting yourself

Building up an army

Creating a barrier so you won’t get hurt again

Making close friends

Who would die for you

But sometimes friends

Can turn into more

And they become the most important person

In your entire life

Everybody else is trying to get close to you

But I borrowed an arrow from an old friend

I’d travel anywhere with you

And today we added another journey

To our ever-growing list

Some parts were a little uncertain

And I thought we might be lost

But we made it back safely

With so many unforgettable memories

We fell asleep tangled up in each other’s arms

Reflecting on the day’s travels

And at the end of it all

There’s still nobody I’d rather have by my side

So come on, let’s go

Why celebrate a special day

If it doesn’t matter the rest of the year?

You have a beautiful heart

In February and July

No amount of appreciation will change that

I love you today

And three months ago when you had the flu

And last night when we stayed up until sunrise

Valentine’s Day is so limiting

I woke up alone in your bed

Everything was still and quiet

You’ll be back in a few hours

And you’ll bring the life back to the room

But for now it’s just me

Alone with my thoughts and your shirt

I can see your artistic touch on everything in the room

And even though you’re not here

I’ll never be good for you

Neutral at best

Hopefully not harmful

But never actually good

Most of the time the plot is set

Boy meets girl

Girl radically improves boy’s life

They fall in love

And live happily ever after

But this time boy met girl

Everything was weird for a long time

Boy’s life became more complicated

Girl added confusion, not happiness

So now they smoke together sometimes

More often than they should

And think about regrets from the past

And how they’re so fucking tired of it all

Or at least the girl does

She knows she’s not good enough for him

And never will be

She’s not good enough for anyone

But it’s okay

She’s accepted it

She so desperately wants to be loved

As deeply as she loves everyone else

Or at all, for that matter

But deep down she knows

It’s an endless cycle

She burns so brightly

But is reduced to ashes so quickly

Like her fifth cigarette of the night

All she ever is to them is another fix

So temporary

Making problems worse, never better

She rises from the ashes to start again

But every time she’s weaker

And she’s long since ceased to be a phoenix

At this point she’s more of a sparrow

Small, insignificant

Not brightly colored or of much value

One day maybe she’ll find someone

Who will overlook that

But it’s not likely

Her friends all love animals

And think she’s beautiful

But they can’t see that she’s just a bird

Whose wings are permanently broken

I’m sorry I can’t fly with you

So please go on without me

Sticks and stones may break my bones

But you can never hurt me

I could survive the Black Death

The Spanish Flu

Your pitiful biological warfare is useless

I can go where I want

Do what I want

With anyone I want

Something you can only dream about

I’ll never get to take sick days

But that’s a small price

When it means I can walk through a hospital

Disease and death on every side

And come out unharmed

Not so much as a sniffle

While the rest of you are in bed with the flu

And I can roam the streets

Without worrying about catching something

While your defenses are weak

Mine have never been stronger

I’ll outlive you all

Whether that’s my fault or yours is up to you

So wash your hands this winter

I don’t need to worry, but you probably should