It’s weird announcing that you’re pregnant with your second child when you’re still ambivalent about the whole parenting thing. Others (who don’t listen closely) just assume that now you’ve embraced motherhood. But I haven’t. I am equally ambivalent (indifferent?) about being a mother now as I was pre-child. I fear how difficult it is going to be, I fear how it’s going to challenge my career trajectory, I fear for my sanity and my happiness, I fear it’s negative impact on my marriage. I know it is not all misery, but I can’t seem to disregard the difficulties. The challenges are real. They are scary. I don’t know if I want to do this again. But yet, we are doing it.