I know its late, but to start this off nicely i just wanna put on the record that i did quite alot today.

Every friend I've had get's tired of me. No matter if I'm myself or trying to change myself. Idk what I'm doing wrong.

It starts with small things. And suddenly they forget to tell me that they are going to other countries. And wont try to meet me anymore. I thought this time maybe I am stressing them out to much by texting them so much. So I stopped and tried doing it less. Look where it got me. Haha

Is there something inherently wrong with me? If there is what is it. And what can I do?

Would there even be a point?

Is there a point that I have?

Is there a point to me still being here?

I feel like there isn't.

Is having hope even worth it at this point?

No matter how many times I think,

"This time will be different"

It isn't.

So maybe I should stop.

"Time passes, but memories linger as the stars in the night sky."

BORONGAN

Derived from the Waray-waray word “borong” which means fog or mist from the river, Borongan traces its history back to the 1600s. Borongan City is the capital of Eastern Samar.

The City of the Golden Sunrise is home to countless natural wonders- undisturbed forests, streams, river rapids, waterfalls, and caves.

Borongan celebrates its fiesta every September 7 and 8. The city organizes various events leading up to the Padul-ong Festival on the 7th, commemorating the day the image of the Blessed Virgin Mary was received in Borongan.

So these were my amazing experiences at the Borongan City town fiesta September 06, 2023. First of all, I did not anticipate having a conversation with someone who invited me to watch TUKLAS. He does not know my true gender because I appear to be a girl in my profile picture, and I am unsure of how to tell him, but I still want to watch it because it features a lot of famous people, and I would be extremely envious if I were to miss it.🥺

So I made the decision to keep it a secret. When he was about to arrive at our boarding house, I was nervous because he hadn't found out yet, and by the time he got there, he was already outside. Of course, I was very nervous, and I wasn't sure whether to respond to his messages, but I just trusted myself that maybe if I admitted to him that I'm not a girl, it would be okay. So I did, and thank God he assured me that everything would be alright😌. He said that he was shy because I was so attractive and quipped, "I wish I was a girl!"

Naturally, I then showered, dressed, and left the boarding house. When we first met outside, we were both still hesitant to approach each other, but it worked out well because he was the one who started the conversation. We then had a great time talking and laughing while riding to sawang.😅

The celebrities are funny, there are a lot of people watching, and most importantly, I'm happy because what I wanted to watch happened. Of course, with him hehe😉, it's a different feeling knowing that he accepts you for who you are and that he's always laughing to me because of the words i am sharing.

After the event, he asked me to go home but suggested we spend a few moments at Baybay Boulevard. I said it was up to you and I'd just follow you wherever we go because I trust you, so we went there. He left me with the impression that our love was vague and only for friends☹️, so after we went to the Baybay, we returned back home. He took me back to our boarding house and waved goodbye, and I was ecstatic because I felt like im a real girl in that way hehehe.

September 08, 2023 (Borongan Town Fiesta)

I don't have many plans to attend the Borongan fiesta because no one has invited me, no one has even chatted, and no one has invited me to a party there🥺, but I'm not giving up hope because it's still early then. So, I believe around 9:00 am, a friend of mine from Arteche who is currently living in Campesao invited me to go there house, though not totally invited because I chatted her😅, so that's when I decided to have my lunch there so after getting dressed and donning a decent outfit because its Borongan of course like girl im in a city😂, after all I promptly board a tricycle and travel to Sawang.

Therefore, there were a lot of people and cars passing by when I was there, and it was just a lot of fun. When I got there, I had to wait a long before I could travel to my friend's house in Campesao because I didn't know where it was. Consequently, I made the decision to remain first, my friend eventually picked me up there after some time.

I was very shy when I entered on their house because I guess, I was their first guest, so of course I was happy because I could now enjoy the food by myself. All of their food was delicious, especially their pork steak, which when it runs out, and of course I won't lose my favorite mango float super delicious😋. For this reason, when my friend offered me to have some videoke, I didn't decline because my voice is so lovely like pang world class talaga charing hehe😅.

After that, my friend invited me to go out for drinks with her classmates, and of course I said yes. I was quite alcoholic at the time and suddenly a friend also of mine chatted me on Facebook. Of course, he was invited me to eat at their house and also so that she could get to know me completely. I came to him so that I could have a bring home before i go home hahaha😂.

Therefore, he picked me up at the Savemore, and I went there. It was awkward since there were a lot of people there, but I didn't care because I wanted to eat again😂. As I was there, we both talked and joked, and the flow of our discussion was nice, just the two of us. We just had a great time drinking there since he was very nice to me and treated me like a woman.

We were riding his motorcycle back home at that point, and he was very gentle with me and of course I was acting like a girl hehe🤭. He then told me that it was the first time he had been with someone like me who wasn't a girl, so I was obviously very happy and excited at the opportunity.

7:35am

“Nobody knows what I sought,

Only the devil himself knows my thoughts”

9:??am

Sitting in the library learning about different subjects to help us with our OPs. Thinking about Math A, Art and maybe Film & Television? I mean, I always wanted to learn animation & graphics for gaming but I know absolutely nothing about technology. I’ll have to talk to the teacher.

((dissociative episode 10am))

After 3 lessons of learning about our OPs, QCS, QCE, the rest of the day was pretty slack. In History, I listened to music with Ben and discussed music rashes. Japanese was also slack. However 2nd lunch was very fun. Not only did Emily & I have a yaoi discussion and screaming, everyone was in a good mood. Especially Marcie. Her and I acted like old times - silly, carefree and funny. Plus she gave me extra kisses which was an awesome day sealer

28.01.2018 17:26