The end of Leo season and transition into Virgo is always a hard time period for me: personal reasons.Ā Itās been a little rocky, and for a few days now Iāve been just kind of licking my wounds.Ā August was to help rebound from Julyās Shadowwork with some Energy Centers and alignment.Ā Ā
It started off with studying Chakras, but Iāve always thought Chakras were appropriation, so that did not stick.Ā It did lead me to some helpful posts (that you can find through the #2020GrimoireAugust tag) that helped me learn about different types of energy centers; when you begin looking up energy healing or anything of that nature you inevitably end up with a lot of results pointing toward Chakras, and cultural appropriation cannot be the only way.
What Iāve Accomplished & How Iāve Grown
- Iām more versed with my own energy, Iāve analyzed where within my energy feels strongest, and where it seems to be expelled more easily.Ā Iāve practiced aligning my energy.Ā Ā
- There has been some progress on the meditation front, though not as much as I would like.Ā Ā
- Iāve spent some time figuring out what to do with the free readings, and unfortunately, it may end up coming off as cold or very stern.Ā The truth is, honestly, there are some questions I get that I really donāt feel need to get a reading, or sometimes even deserve a reading.Ā Iām not a magic 8 ball here to just confirm every whim and desire; I know sometimes we all need reassurance that weāre on the right path, but often times its not the case.
What Is Still Before Me
- I really do have some work to go with my Meditation & Yoga practice.
- While doing all this, Iām swiftly running out of funds, my savings is evaporating before my eyes, and Iām worried.Ā Iām real worried.Ā I donāt get nearly as many paid readings as I wish I did.Ā Soon Iām going to have to look for different ways to earn cash to keep myself afloat.Ā Though, honestly, I could probably get by with 10 Celtic Cross readings a week.Ā Ā
- Being inside for so long has really started to get to me, mood wise.Ā Luckily, it should cool down in September and I should be able to get out.Ā Itās 82F outside today as opposed to the 106F it had been for most of the last week of August.Ā Ā
- Dealing with my mother.Ā Reasons.Ā Wish me luck.Ā Ā
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Heyo!Ā This is just a small update on my personal progress and a reminder that the New Moon is TODAY (8/18) & is in Leo, so thereās that!Ā Ā
This month Iāve been studying chakras and focusing on my own internal energy with yoga and meditation.Ā Chakras is a great concept but I donāt enjoy how western culture has cheapened this fascinating Hindu/Indian (Iām super stupid and am not 100% sure on its origin place&culture) concept.Ā I have, though, been having a better time meditating and my yoga practices come away feeling mentally and physically rejuvenated.Ā Ā
Iāve switched gears into Energy Systems, which technically Chakras are, but I want something that doesnāt make me feel dirty when I study it.Ā The issue with this is anytime I search Energy Healing or other similar phrases I get 99% results about chakras & reiki, as if that is the only way to use, manipulate, and heal with energy.Ā It cannot be the only way-- and has anyone noticed that all the .99c books on chakras and reiki are written by very very pasty white people? Being a very very pasty white person myself can I just say....Ā uh.... no?Ā no?Ā no.Ā I donāt know wtf reiki is but I can tell by the name that itās not my business. But apparently itās all these other white peopleās business.Ā Mmmmmmkay.Ā Ā
Regardless, some things Iāve learned about my own energy, healing my energy, by using yoga, which is one of the only ways I can exercise due to my shitty joints, so this is a win win.
Forward Fold: I do this pose and end up wrapping my arms around my knees to help get a stretch in the back of my thighs.Ā When I do this and spill forward I also imagine my icky old gray stagnant energy spilling out of the crown of my head and returning to the earth.Ā I imagine new and fresh energy winding its way up into my feet, ankles, calves, knees, thighs, and once I feel it begin to get to my hips I do a Halfway Lift before coming all the way back up again.Ā Ā
Plank: This helps me center myself, align my back, my hips, my legs into nice clean lines of communication (if you will).Ā I also push against the floor with my feet and hands andĀ āpushā my energy into my core, align it along the spine and body.Ā Since I feel like I end up with a lot of energy in my hands and feet and sometimes it needs to return back to center, calm down, and then we can continue.Ā Ā
Sometimes I move too fast with my hands and/or feet and get clumsy, and when I start getting jittery and clumsy Iāve been using the plank pose to get straight again.Ā Lol, get as straight as I can be, that is.
I like to think that Iām very careful about what I include into my craft; I may research many things but if I actually practice it, thatās another story.Ā Thatās how I feel approaching Chakras.Ā I donāt think Iām likely to really going to include chakras and their meditations continuously in my practice after these 30 days.Ā What I do hope to continue, though, is working with my own internal energies, learning to balance these, and going from there.Ā Ā
Me rambling about chakras and energy and meditation and junk under the thing
The first issue with me and my energy is I canāt meditate worth jack.Ā Iāve been practicing for 16 years, youād think Iād have this down pat, but NOPE!Ā Sometimes I get really frustrated at Past Me for skipping along and skip-skip-skipping right on past the fundamentals like meditation.Ā Take heed, witchlings, learn your fundamentals or youāll end up just like me.Ā Ā
So far the book(s) talk about how my depression, anxiety, and hip pain can all be cured by the right chakra meditations....Ā Um.Ā I really donāt have much faith in that; I definitely take stock in the exercise comments, sure, and I understand how working with my internal energies can help ease depression and anxiety, but I donāt think itās the cure all that itās reading as?Ā Like I donāt think I can cure sciatica with my chakra meditations, but whatever to those of yāall that think you can, all the power to you.Ā But an out of balance crown chakra causing coma???Ā Seriously, the fuck?
I also find the herbs, colors, foods, etc, just....Ā But I always feel that way with correspondences truth be told; Iām always wondering what or who decided that this herb goes with that thing.Ā Or colors, like... itās energy...Ā Why does that have a color code?Ā I understand energy can be rainbow or void of color but at the same time, I just question a lot of this that Iām reading.Ā Maybe I should be approaching it with more of an open mind, but thereās just a lot of Chakra associations that I donāt need.Ā I donāt need stones, herbs, noises, etc for each Chakra; I just need to learn how to access those feelings and the energy itself.Ā It seems soooo weighed down by all theseĀ āmeaningsā when its my own internal energy system, so what gives?
After finishing the chakra portion of this meditation book, like.... yea..... ok.Ā sure, bud.Ā Ā
Also, it turns out that I already balance my chakras thru all these yoga poses that I end up doing so neat.Ā Neato.Ā Ā
I didnāt get all my July prompts done, so Iām wrapping that up for now.Ā While July focused on Shadow-work and the mental/psychological shadow, Augustās 30DoM is Chakras, a switch to my internal energy flow.Ā Ā
How I see Chakras currently is a specific teaching of energy work; meanwhile, Iāve never really looked into energy work formally, Iāve just done what works for me.Ā Iām not that great at meditating, thereās just a lot of small stuff that I find I falter on with my craft.Ā Iām hoping that learning about Chakras will give me a better understanding of my own energy and especially, how to replenish it after a day of tarot reading.Ā Ā
*Just a reminder for everyone, this is my personal set ofĀ āmonthliesā to get done that I create for myself and share, some of them this month are obviously personal to me.Ā I share so that others following me can see how I am developing my craft this year, why Iām doing the things Iām doing, and just to kind of help with examples.Ā Keep in mind Iāve got no clue what Iām doing with a lot of these subjects, and in a lot of ways I am a wee witchling/baby witch as well.Ā Ā
30DoM & Study Prompts below the cut
30DoM - Chakras
Daily Task: Meditation
Daily Task: Yoga Sun Salutations
Chakras Notion Entry
Journal on Life Philosophy
Book: Meditation For Beginners 3-in-1, Jessica Alcantara
Book: Chakras For Beginners, Crystal Hay
Find a method of meditation that works for me
Grimoire
Correspondence: Magic Intent Correspondences- make a list of themes in magic (wealth, calmness, abundance, etc) and what you could use to represent these themes in spellwork.
Research&Journal&Cast: Spell Sachets, Bottles, & Jars: the benefits of each, what to use in them, where to put them.
Personal Timeline: Create and flesh out my personal timeline of events. Ā Include events that helped shape my path.
Spell: Create a Spell sachet-bottle-or-jar for Creativity & Inspiration as well as Motivation.
