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Yoo Seonho

Jaehyun of Golden Child

I’ll never be good for you

Neutral at best

Hopefully not harmful

But never actually good

Most of the time the plot is set

Boy meets girl

Girl radically improves boy’s life

They fall in love

And live happily ever after

But this time boy met girl

Everything was weird for a long time

Boy’s life became more complicated

Girl added confusion, not happiness

So now they smoke together sometimes

More often than they should

And think about regrets from the past

And how they’re so fucking tired of it all

Or at least the girl does

She knows she’s not good enough for him

And never will be

She’s not good enough for anyone

But it’s okay

She’s accepted it

She so desperately wants to be loved

As deeply as she loves everyone else

Or at all, for that matter

But deep down she knows

It’s an endless cycle

She burns so brightly

But is reduced to ashes so quickly

Like her fifth cigarette of the night

All she ever is to them is another fix

So temporary

Making problems worse, never better

She rises from the ashes to start again

But every time she’s weaker

And she’s long since ceased to be a phoenix

At this point she’s more of a sparrow

Small, insignificant

Not brightly colored or of much value

One day maybe she’ll find someone

Who will overlook that

But it’s not likely

Her friends all love animals

And think she’s beautiful

But they can’t see that she’s just a bird

Whose wings are permanently broken

I’m sorry I can’t fly with you

So please go on without me