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this week well past week have been…interesting and I feel kinda…wired like…I don’t want to talk to anyone…I don’t want to be with or near people right now…i am always worried about my irl and other friends on here…but sometimes it feels wrong to just ignore them…and uh…I might just take a weekend long break from my friends for the weekend because…I just can’t do it anymore…I mean none of them are burdens hell I am a burden…so I’m takeing a break…from everyone until I feel like being around people without balling my eyes out because my heart and brain hurts a lot…just thought I might say that…☹️ sorry..

@dreamypositive-mind-blower @autismlntensifies @strawberryswirl4321

imo “less of a woman” is definitely a weird way to describe someone using they/them pronouns. using pronouns however makes you feel most comfortable is literally just a different form of gender nonconformity so I really don’t understand your issue…

either way, the really cool part abt my original statement is that (even though I think it would’ve been fine if I hadn’t) I did in fact say “my gnc butch dyke mother who uses they/them pronouns”

2 - what was your first time running a game like?

sort of depends? i've been running informal, non-system games since like, elementary school, no dice or anything. the first proper ttrpg, system-run game? that was kind of a mess. i ran a game of pathfinder for a bunch of my friends in grade 9, and they hadn't played any ttrpgs before so they didn't quite, like, get it? and admittedly i was having a hard time teaching them what these games are all about too. but we had fun at least, even if we only got through the first 2~ rooms of a dungeon before one of them cast speak with animals on a giant frog and at that point it was all over. it actually took me a few years of playing/dming on and off, and a dedicated group of regular players for me to really hit my stride

5 - what is your favourite part about running a game?

there's this thing that happens when you're in the heat of it all, the blood's hot, you have to react immediately to your players' decisions, where you kinda have to split your brain into one part thinking about the current action (and i don't necessarily mean like combat action) one part always keeping in mind the larger story, and then another part always keeping in mind the larger-larger story. and something happens in that moment of like, flow-state, where you become so caught up in facilitating the game that it's almost ego-deathy where your brain's moving a thousand miles a second and the table becomes this bubbling caldera of new insane shit cause you're reacting in entirely new ways to things your players do that you could never possibly imagine. it's like i'm on fucking ecstasy.

8 - what type of stories do you like to tell? what is a story of yours incomplete without?

woof i mean, it's sort of hard for me to break down my own storytelling like this cause i don't have an outsider's perspective, but i can give it a shot.

fundamentally, i like stories about people who get beat up a lot. literally and figuratively. Thank You Spider-Man. like, i beat up on my pcs because like, it’s fuckin all about success through struggle man, otherwise, what’s the fucking point? i like to tell stories about deeply dedicated people choosing to continue, to keep fighting, despite how stacked the odds area against them, or how much they get hit. we as spectators to these stories feel on an intimate level how important the characters goals are to them, cause why else would they try so hard and face such hardship? i think a story of mine would be incomplete, it would feel empty, if the characters didn’t lose pretty hard on their way to winning.