My Pregnancy Journey-1st Trimester
Before being pregnant
When I was a little girl, I wanted about 4-5 kids, but then I downsized to 2-3 kids as I got older. I, for sure, thought that I would be married in tip-top shape so that when I had my baby, I can snap back, and I thought I would be a millionaire. I can currently check off 0 of those items. I wasnβt married when I found out that I was pregnant, I wasnβt in my best shape when I found out I was pregnant, and I, for sure, wasnβt a millionaire. I say all this to say that things usually donβt go as we plan them out to be, so thereβs no need to be hard on yourself.
Positive Pregnancy Test
I knew I was pregnant the moment it happened. I know my body, and I knew something was different. I didn't deny it. I was excited. I took a few tests after it happened, and they came back negative, but once I was far along enough, sure enough, the test popped up positive instantly. I was so excited and anxious to tell my partner. Once he found out, he immediately cried tears of joy. I recorded the whole encounter so that we can go back and show our child his reaction.
1st Trimester Weeks 1-12
The first couple of weeks during my pregnancy were pure joy and excitement. We were so high off life, knowing that we were having a baby. It wasn't until weeks 6-11, where I started to feel super sick and not myself. Thankfully I was able to keep my food down and eat what I wanted (some things triggered my nausea), but I was dry heaving all the time. I wasn't comfortable at all in my 1st trimester. I could barely get out of the bed because I was in so much pain. I wanted to be active and get exercise, but I was so sick. I'm so thankful that my partner was a big help around the help and came to my rescue whenever I needed anything. He never complained about going to the store and getting me my cravings.
At the end of the 1st trimester, I started feeling better because I was taking nausea medicine every night and my prenatal, but my biggest challenge then became energy. I was so drained and could barely stay up. I remember waking up, eating breakfast, falling right back to sleep, waking up because the sleep wasn't good quality, and crying because I was still so tired. I was tired and drained. I was also very hard on myself because I couldn't do anything, and I always feel guilty when I'm just lying around and not doing anything. I would have my partner, family, and friends telling me to relax and not be so hard on myself because I'm creating life inside me. I still have to keep that in mind. I wanted to vlog and make blog posts every week, but I could not muster up the energy to do any of it. I wasn't posting on social media as much, and I just wasn't interested in a lot. The only thing I did was work, sleep, watch or read up on my pregnancy, watch t.v. I felt so unproductive, but now I know I was being so hard on myself and not to have the same attitude when I have another child.
Somewhere in my feelings, I felt like I was losing my identity. I didnβt know who I was or my purpose. I just knew that I was about to be a little human beingβs mother. I wasnβt doing anything for myself. It wasnβt until this very day where I felt likeΒ I am a powerful woman, and I have a purpose and things to do. I wanted to be up under my partner all the time and didnβt want to do anything alone. Again, it took me until this very day and him telling me that heβs not going to be here all the time and that we each have our own individual lives. Of course, inside I was crying and waiting until he left to shed a few tears, but he was right. Thatβs when I picked up my laptop and started on this blog postβhim telling me that motivated me more than ever. I didnβt want to lose myself. If anything, I wanted to be sure about myself and my child. I couldnβt let that emotional side of me take over because that isnβt who I am. I was having a moment, and now Iβm back and better than ever.
Iβm so happy that I am now in my 2nd trimester because I feel so much better. Some say that the 1st trimester can be the most challenging. Iβm just glad that I have my energy back because I can do so much more and feel much happier. I feel like myself again. If I could change anything from the 1st trimester, it would probably eat better and drink more water even though it was a struggle. Eating more helped with nausea, but I was being so stubborn and couldnβt handle it. Other than that, I wouldnβt change anything else: one trimester down, two more to go. I canβt wait to meet my beautiful baby!
