i wish i had learned from you. i wish i could remember the lessons that i was supposed to have learned. i’m still here where you left me, waiting by the phone, stuck in the time when you still wanted me. i never lived past you, i never learned to live without you. my heart beats for you, even after all this time and all the ways you told me you didn’t feel the same.

My throat hurts from talking. This is a rare experience nowadays. I often forget how good it feels when people other than you genuinely cares about what you feel or what you're up to these days. Even the trivial things about you get them interested. And you feel the same way towards them. It's beautiful and I'll always be thankful.