#11x14

something i think about a lot is the scene in 11.14 with sam and casifer. i think it is such an interesting and devastating scene that i’m surprised more people don’t talk about. to think how much sam must trust castiel to say the words “i trust you” in regards to something as violent and intimate as touching his soul given his history with bodily autonomy and violations. the vulnerability that sam is willingly sharing with castiel because he trusts him—even if it’s so hard to trust anyone else, even dean has taken away trust in that regard. but this vulnerability is thrown in his face, he’s mocked and laughed at to his face. he is violated again. he has to not only come to terms with facing lucifer again, being violated by him again nonetheless with castiel’s face, but he has to take in that castiel chose that. not only did he chose it, he had the option to choose it. sam never got that option, and now he doesn’t have the option of trust either.