#11w5d

I can’t believe it. I’m so excited. My husband is literally jumping up and down with excitement to have a son. I don’t know what I’m going to do with a boy, but I’m so excited.

But I’m a bit nervous to lean into this feeling because if I start thinking of the baby as [chosen girl name] and then it turns out when it’s born that I was wrong, it’s going to be really weird and jarring to suddenly have a boy with a different name. It’s not even that I davka want a girl; honestly I think there would be a lot of pros to having another boy (we’ve got all the clothes and they should be close enough to the same season for each size; we'll learn all the boy lifecycle and school stuff and so on with my son and then won’t have to start from scratch with the next kid; etc). I just think it is a girl. 

That’s right! It’s a boy! Baby Harrison is coming into the world to the absolute joy of his dad, mom, and big sister. Melody is so excited.

I decided to treat myself today, but it meant I had to go grocery shopping. I’ve been so exhausted lately that just the thought of dealing with the grocery store after work has worn me out. But, I’ve been craving a BLT all weekend, and after the weekend I had, I was gonna have it. The grocery store also had strawberries on sale. I’m completely satisfied. (Although I wish I could stop burping.)

If I have another child after this one, I can't wait to actually know what the f&@$ is going on the second time I'm pregnant. For this first one, it just seems like it will be 9 months of not knowing if pains are normal or not and low key freaking out every day. I trust you, body. You got this.

Our little decided to keep its hand over its face the whole visit so we couldn't really get a good read on the features but it was a breath of relief to watch the flicker of the heart and the little wiggles. We have a sleepy babe atm <3 I've pretty much accepted it will be a boy now buuuuuut the name struggle is real. We're at such a loss when it comes to agreeing, however our girl name is set in stone. Le'sigh. Either way this little is so entirely loved.