#102319

it all comes down to you, every single time. i never thought i would be the one to be affected by you, because i figured i would be used to it by the time you left my life. but here i am, and since we haven't spoken in 6 months, our past is all i have to focus on. i am standoffish, and i don't let people into my life, and i hear your voice in my head when i meet new people- judging them. i always thought i could be better than you, that i knew who i didn't want to be so i could be better. but it all comes down to you. you are the reason i can't get close to people. you are the reason i am so cold. you are the reason that i am simultaneously terrified of commitment and being left alone. thanks to you, i am no longer worried about ending up with someone like you- i'm also worried about becoming you.