#10152014

19-24 " and if you are sure that you yourself are a guide to the blind, a light to those who are in darkness, an instructor of the foolish, a teacher of children, having in the law the embodiment of knowledge and truth-- you then who teach others, do you not teach yourself? While you preach against stealing, do you steal? You who say that one must not commit adultery, do you commit adultery? You who abhor idols, do you rob temples? You who boast in the law dishonor God by breaking the law. For, as it is written, "The name of God is blasphemed among the Gentiles because of you"

3-5 "Do you suppose, O man-- you who judge those who practice such things and yet do them yourself-- that you will escape the judgement of God? Or do you presume on the riches of his kindness and forbearance and patience, not knowing that God's kindness is meant to lead you to repentance? But because of your hard and impenitent heart you are storing up wrath for yourself on the day of wrath when God's righteous judgement will be revealed" 

maybe this is how it all connects: when I began to realize that life truly is short-- that there is no more "when I grow up"-- because this is the real deal. there is a sense of urgency and significance to living right starting now; because there is no 'later' in life, it's just here and now.