#04x12

maybe this is me reading too much into a one-off childhood fact but i really enjoy thinking about sam’s magic phase as another example of him searching for a little bit of control in a life he doesn’t like and struggles to understand, especially because he says in 04x12 that he was thirteen (“i was thirteen. it was a phase”) which is both a few years after he learns about hunting and most likely after he started joining john and dean on hunts (“he’s been running into burning buildings since he was, what, 12?” from 05x22). i like the idea of it functioning as him emulating the things that he sees on hunts (making things disappear, appear, etc) but he’s the one that’s making it happen and the one cueing the harmless action, instead of having the action done towards him (usually in a surprising and/or violent manner).

it would have been the ultimate power move if when everyone was having the "well triton's daughter had to be the one to bring him back, but his son will be the end of worlds" realisation, if rachel had of pulled out the "well guys actually... would now be a good time to come out??" and then boom pow trans rachel, the world gets saved etc etc