#042020

I'd be better off if the clouds would grow darker every step of the way. Then I could keep going from darkness to deeper darkness. Before long the world would be pitch black and I wouldn't be able to see myself. Then everything would be fine.

i feel statistically unlucky. maybe it’s a narcissistic trait to believe that bad things happen to you, solely because you exist. but when traffic hits hard as i’m leaving, my first thought is that of course this happened to me. when i make a mistake, however big or small, my first thought is that obviously i would do something like that. i am simultaneously narcissistic and self-deprecating. someone needs to put me in check.

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