Apr 17, 2017
Harry in NYC - 4/17
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Harry in NYC - 4/17
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I have had some time to think about this. And the more I think about it, the angrier and angrier I get about it. The thing that makes me the angriest is that I felt like I was the one being a problem. Overthinking the situation and making connections that have no factual standing. I'm the one telling myself that I need to stop and get my shit together. I convinced myself that I was the one who needed to trust more. But it turns out that I am right. You made me feel bad for no reason. There is no excuse for lying straight to my face by means of fabrication or omission. I shouldn't have to piece together what you are actually doing. Not telling me things because you are scared of what I will do or think is selfish. It's manipulative. It's the one thing I asked you not to do. I thought that after dealing with the last situation and you lying about hanging out with him behind my back, that we would be done with this stuff. I honestly don't know if I even believe what you told me about him. Apologizing implies change and that it won't happen again. I was just getting to trust you fully and now we are starting all over again. I feel like this happens because you know there isn't really any way for me to double check what you are doing or who you are with. I think that you think you can get away with it and that's why this is an issue again. I shouldn't have to worry about what you are doing and who you are with. I don't want to worry. But if you do something, I'm not confident that you will actually tell me what happened. So instead of lying to me I need you to either tell me the truth or don't do whatever it is that you would want to hide from me. I go above and beyond trying to constantly show you that I genuinely love and care about you. I don't lie. I tell you everything I go do. I own up to my mistakes. If there is something that I know you will have a problem with, I do not do it. Relationships are about sacrifice and compromise. Relationships are about transparency and honesty. I'm not writing this to make you feel bad. But to tell you how I'm feeling and to get this deep aching feeling out of my chest. This is me being open and honest with you. I still love you just as much as I always have. That's not gonna change. But I need this to stop. And you can make the conscious decision to do so.
1:48 am
another combination of an hour and a minute thats a starking reminder of my ability to stay in my head for so long, yet emerge in a far more murkier state.
all these ideologies and concepts and growing passions passes through my head but it never concretizes, remains abstract, lost because i am incapable of organizing even the simplest of my thoughts.
yesterday i wouldve stood with much more pride, posture straight, chin slightly tilted up and eyes, definitely more confident and sharp. but it is in these last few hours where ive stripped every bit of me down where whats all left is the fear, the anxiety, the rotting curls of my thoughts.
its quite frustrating to have the privilege to be able to feel that. everywhere, people criticize, lay their eyes, lend their ear, process my existence but never actually seeing, listening, not really understanding.
its 2:02 am and i hope you’ve a bit humanity in you.
Happiest birthday my one and only, Mister! I love you always and forever! 😘😘 #irisnaveen #teamEnriquez11 #041717
Easter eggs #041717 #ht247loveit #happyeaster
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I must be really bad at piano if my boyfriend can't sit through the whole piece. I feel sad but I'll still practice.
If God’s plan for me was to move on and fall for someone knew, shouldn’t I be completely or almost over you?
If God’s plan was for us to never be together again, shouldn’t I have stopped loving and thinking about you?
Gosh darn I get palpitations whenever I see you. I am constantly thinking about you. I am continuously praying for your well being, and that you’ll grow into a mature.. respectful.. appreciative.. kind.. and honest person I know you have the potential of being. I’ve been praying that one day, you’ll realize how good I was to you.
It’s been a year.
After all I’ve been through and after all you’ve done, why hasn’t my affection for you deteriorated.. I’ve tried to block out the good times and only think of the bad, hoping it would help me move on completely. In addition to that, I would pray and pray and pray that one day I could finally say I’m actually over you and truly mean it. But damn I just end up lying to myself and to my family that I’m over it.
My diagnosis? I am a crazy person who loves too hard and loves too deep that it seems impossible to be able to escape it all.
041717
Today, you said that you wanted to end it..that you would’ve lost your shit if it weren’t for the bracelet and it honestly made me happy. I’m literally thanking God and giving myself a round of applause for giving you the bracey. What truly made me happy though is that the bracelet served its purpose; guide you through everything, and be a remembrance that you’ll always have me. I hope the bracey will keep on doing its job, but the truth it I’m scared now. No, no screw that.. I am TERRIFIED of the possibility that one day you might truly end your life. Maybe one day you might actually call it quits and leave this world…it’s breaking my heart, and it makes me cry. I..I don’t want you to, okay? It may be selfish of me, but fuck it! I like you a lot, I really do.. I don’t want you to go away, okay? You’re an amazing and incredible guy. You always light up my mood and give meaning to my days. I won’t lie..sure, you’re a pain in the ass sometimes but you’re MY pain in the ass. The point is, I’m willing to go through anything as long as it’s either with you or for you. You mean a lot to me, Shaun. I don’t want you to leave, okay? Because then my heart would be shattered into million pieces, my mind can never be clear of thoughts about you, and I will probably cry myself to sleep every night. The grief would be too much to handle. Please don’t give up anytime soon, okay? In fact, don’t give up at all. I can be here for you. I can always be with you until you heal as well. I just have one favor to ask of you.. Stay with me, alright? Can you do that? Can you please stay with me?