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The gentle burn of eyes gone dry

a plea to the mind. In reply,

a gesture to chasms within my core

Warning unheeded, they grow some more

Those dreaded hours when locked away

are all the words you'd never say

echoing within their tomb

and prophesying oft of doom

The sickening green of shifting light

an endless call to extend the night

Caught at the whims of youthful dreams

if you happen to stumble across this blog, pay it no mind. this is simply a way for me to record the events of my life as well as stay somewhat connected to the outside world. thank you.

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they stared into each other then broke the spaces between them. suddenly they were kissing. they did not want to stop. they were scared to stop. they did not want the moment to end. because they knew one of them would be sane to break what was happening. but then they needed to breathe. they were both breathless, hardly breathing from that long kiss.

they were silent for a moment, their forehead so close with each other. while still gasping for air, they stared each other. "i'm—" he uttered. but then she stopped him. "don't fvcking apologize." she leaned on the sofa and remained silent for a moment. she closed her eyes. she's frustrated.

"what do you want me to say then?" he asked. she looked hurt because she also didn't know what to say or what she wanted to hear from him. this happened before and they just both ignored it. but they knew this will happen again eventually. until when will they keep on ignoring what was happening between them?

she then inhaled deeply and sat properly now facing him again. she courageously asked him, "do you like me?" he was just quiet. he was staring at her, obviously stunned by her question. she hadn't popped this question ever since.

she was teary eyed after a moment of silence. she stood up ready to go away. she walked passed him. but then she felt his hand in hers. "please, don't go." she did not look at him. he took her other hand as well.

he stood up. he cupped her face. he kissed her. "i like you". he kissed her again. a tear dropped from her eye. he wiped it out with his thumb. "i like you. i'm just scared you'll run away. or things will end between us if this won't work out. you're so important to me." he kissed her again. and again. but this time, it's deeper. more passionately. demanding.

their heartbeats are in sync. both were anxious but happy. both were careful but excited.

they were lying in the sofa while making out. after a while, he felt her hand inside his shirt. "pen," he said almost begging. although they did not stop kissing. he kissed her in the neck. she moaned.

she undressed him. "are you sure?" she just kissed him again and they started to undress each other. he scooped her and brought her to his room.

he undid her bra and slid down her panty. he kissed her nipple while she tightened her hands in his hair. she moaned, now louder, as she felt his mouth in between her thighs and instinctively bent upward. she felt his strong hands holding her sides. she loved his every single touch in her body. this was the warmth she ever longed for.