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I want to see you by the refracted lights as well as by the direct ones, (Elizabeth Barrett Browning, letter to Robert Browning dated May 1, 1845 in "The Love Letters of Elizabeth Barrett and Robert Browning")

NYE 3DS stamps / graphics

Used a premade 3DS frame . The Eye of Horus , the flag , buttons and etc were all drawn and animated by me . Credit is not required for my graphics , but is appreciated .

it’s still small, could be hidden by a large shirt or hoodie, but you know it’s there. you know it’s there and it’s all you can think about as you try to navigate through life as normal. the tautness of it is higher than you expected, marring any excuse you could convince yourself with.

passing glances in mirrors and shop windows. are you being obvious? that roundness in your middle-- can it be played off? you think you’re overthinking. you think you’re just letting it get to your head.

ITS SO HARD NOT TO JUMP INTO A RANT ABOUT AUS BCUZ MY BRAIN HAS DRAWERS OF EACH SUGURU AND I LOVE HIM AT EACH AND EVERY MOMMYNESS INTENSITY SETTING BUT LET ME KEEP IT SHORT AND SWEET

It just HAAASSSSSS to start as a joke somewhere when the mommyness is at its peak, say he's scolding you about not dressing properly for the weather or chastising you over your freezing cold sockless feet (can you guess I'm hanging by a thread over here) going over the routine of asking what you ate at this hour and that hour JUST PROVING YOUR POINT AND BEING MOMMY. A little "thank you mommy :>" when he's done yapping will make him stop and reflect a little TvT yea it just snowballs from there HE'S NOT OPPOSED TO THE IDEA IT PAINTS HIM IN A DEPENDABLE RESPONSIBLE (.....dominant..........) LIGHT OFC HE'D BE DOWN he wants to be recognized for it too lol HES ONLY HUMAN

Over time, the show has started to care less and less about the relationships between characters, especially platonic relationships. In the first season there’s a lot of focus on the relationships between (for example) Gwen and Merlin, Morgana and Gwen, Morgana, Uther and Arthur and most importantly Gaius and Merlin. Then Morgana turned evil and seemingly overnight stopped caring about Gwen entirely (when she would’ve fought an army barehanded for her before). Merlin and Gwen hardly even interact anymore and when they do it’s like they only know eachother through Arthur?? Like they were besties, what happened? Merlin and Gaius are still kinda important but honestly their relationship hasn’t been mentioned in so many episodes I almost forgot about the good old days where they kept being all “oh you’re like a son to me Merlin, I never met my father but I was hoping he’d be like you Gaius”.

Aside from that, Merlin’s friendship with Gwaine was also kinda dropped like a hot potato the second Gwaine was knighted. Gone are the days of “same reason as you, helping out a friend”, replaced by the days of Gwaine and Merlin straight up not interacting and Merlin being content to leave Gwaine as a slave to Morgana?? Uhm???

Merlin and Arthur are kinda exempt from this (I’m not letting anyone forget about Arthur’s forced character regression every season. I get genuine whiplash every time I finish a season where Merlin and Arthur have a super strong friendship only to start the next season where they barely tolerate one another again), but only because they’re the main characters. There was a brief moment of focus on the romantic relationship between Gwen and Arthur which was nice I suppose, but now that they’re married it just seems like the writers low-key forgot Gwen’s even there.

You are 26. A few months ago, you were working as a waiter and modeling sometimes. Going to auditions.

You are a 5'11 twink from Odessa, TX, so, naturally (how????), you schedule a chemistry test for that Canadian gay hockey drama you auditioned fot the "6'4 Russian gay top hockey captain in love with his rival" with.

It was never expected to be seen outside of Canada. HBO had already refused to make it unless they didn't get so much spice as a kiss until episode 4, so, but it was going go pay you $80,000 for 6 episodes which is amazing for a waiter in LA. It will buy you audition time.

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Now though, you went to the Vanity Fair Oscars After Party as the guest everyone wanted to talk to.

You got to do SNL! And you absolutely crushed it. People are calling you Heath Ledger Reincarnated.

You talked to Seth Meyers on one of your first talk show appearances about meeting his friends, and he did a little fast-forward sketch with you in which he congratulated you on your 2028-2029ish(?) Oscars win.

But, of course, you have yet to do a project that will be eligible. He's that confident in you though. Wow.

And Verizon won the bid on getting you behind their brand. They paid you a fortune to let them create the most amazing film-reel for you.

And you're loving it. It's about your ass. AMERICA'S ASS. 😂

And it's because of that audition you never thought you'd get. And now you're here. Your co-star is rad. You love that guy. He loves you, too. It feels natural to look out for each other and hold hands as you face the Rollercoaster that is fame. Just like your characters will hold hands and step into the light of their relationship in season 2 of your now very famous show.

The pressure is on, but you and your new bestie, Hudson--y'all got this.

You're gaining the experience of being discovered by the world right now, so you can relate to what Ilya will be working towards in season 2.

And the whole world can't wait to see what y'all create together.

The world is excited for your future.