Something that blows my mind
the inescapable proof that there are things that have happened in my life that i have experienced that have no logical explanation, that would freak someone the hell out because there is literally no way to logically explain the things when i tell what happened.
which includes the fact that in a dream once, the Doctor in his 11th regeneration, a regeneration that looked close to the show version but not quite, was at my childhood home, aliens had showed up, me and him started running into the woods behind my house that in waking reality, i always went into to leave notes for them and others they know and he literally said, either ***"You need to remember me Clara!"* or instead of need, he said that i got to or have to.
And it was just me and him in the dream. And countless times in my life, i have had seen, heard, and experienced way too many instances in which i am seeing and hearing the name Clara, ravens, the aspect of living so many lives, being 'impossible', etc. Like am I Clara or is Clara me? Is Clara a false identity and it's actually me with my name? So confused. Also the forgetting thing? This would imply that instead of the show version where the Doctor forgot Clara for a time, that in reality if i am Clara or Clara is me that instead i forgot them and either a previous regeneration before the 12th is telling me early through my dreams to try and prevent it from ever happening or stop it themselves as if it had already happened and i just don't know it.
And then all the countless dreams, and everything in waking reality with proof and experiences through sight and hearing, of being a time lady known as The Protector, who seems to closely be in the lives of not just the Doctor and the Master, but the Rani, Jack and Torchwood, the companions, etc. like am i really this Protector?
so which one is it, Clara or the Protector? The same person but two different name aliases/identities? lmao, like which is it?










