#*posts tentatively*

Shizuo to me has always been a representation of many antithetical messages against drrr's purpose: he's very chronically offline despite being well known, he's not in love with anyone despite most of the story circling around people's obsessive love for each other, and most importantly the man is both human and inhuman. Drrr's an urban fantasy, but it offers no explanation behind the phenomenon of his strength. I would argue he is one of drrr's greatest unsolved mysteries (as well as unsolved plot points). He's so fun!

And a little off topic maybe, but it's also why I find Shizaya such a great ship. Shizuo is in one of the most twisted and negative relationships in the whole show, and it has nothing to do with love! Shizuo himself isn't really the type of guy to BE a toxic lover who did anything selfishly or sacrificed others for his own happiness, so it just seems weirdly intentional but also profound that he doesn't really have anybody? I am not being obtuse by intentionally excluding the whole thing with Vorona but like... I'm sorry, it just seems very one sided? And to argue that his actions at the end of drrr are executed solely on his love for her and not his hatred of Izaya is just obtusely selective in and of itself.

Just to be clear, I'm not arguing that Shizuo isn't a toxic person. I just think that overall the positive relationships he has have positive outcomes and the negative relationships he has are always complex and carry nuances because Shizuo isn't a bad person, but he has a very narrow minded logic. His simpleton nature actually makes him appear to have many layers, at least in my opinion.

But back to the original subject at hand which is it Shizuo would be an insecure or possessive love or somewhere mixed between the two. The thing is that I think Shizuo would have to fundamentally change his perspective of life before he was even able to bring himself to love someone, so it's a bit of a moot point I guess? HOWEVER, upon reaching that point, I feel like he would be the type of lover to find a relationship to be a growing process. I hc him as a hopeless romantic type. Love is love is love to him and he'd have to learn how to not let his reactive anger over feeling insecure in his relationship AND his reactive anger over wanting to have the person beside him at all times even in a protective way to overpower him before he could even accept another person's love. I think he's the type of guy to have that noble sort of resolve about him.

Shizuo's got a lot of Shonen protag in him, and I've said this in the past but Shonen protag mentalities do not always apply well to the real world- which drrr is both set and not set in! That's why I apply reality to it so much. It's just my special little blorbo that I just can't seem to be normal about, and he's one of the main reasons.